drop of coffee

Blek...give me another drop of coffee!!! hehe...current i am trying to cut down my coffee intake...erm...or in fact i should say cutting down starbucksing=) hehe..but with this pic i think most of you can understand how i feel rite now=P

Now waiting for my appraisal=( next months eat grass or makan ular all depends on today, moreover the appraisal take place in front of me. Scary men!!! i can merely hear wat my director said..ahh...now they talk bout insentive and bonus...wat the heck!!! *praying praying* bai bai.....amitabah!!! poh pi poh pi.....kekeke

New look

last nite went to saloon for haircut, then tat damn sweet talking hairstylist persued me to color my hair...at first i jz don feel like do it.but i had pair of soft ear...wat the fock!!! i dye my hair with the color that look weird myself, eventhough other say is ok...I am think to color black=(

CNY approaching

recently do nth at all and jz hope tat the CNY can come faster so i can go back home soon...i had been long time i don really go back to home in johor d..lot of frens i haven met in 2 years. Hope can see them all this time=)

Date....

can u imagine after so long i finally pick a date!!! wuahahaahah....unbelievable eventhough is not an official date or a lovely couple going out date...but i cant believe, still, i actually when out with a totally new gal to me for movie and meals....honestly she is so sweet i donno whethere she is really the type i looking for but i m sure she is very atrractive, not to me only but i think generally she is attrative to all=) She told me that she is kinda quiet type but in the end of the day i found tat we got look of things to talk and we even talk more than when i was dating with HER last time..haha..i like communicate and we are communicating. I am not sure m her type or she is my type but wat i do sure is i like to communicate and she is will like to communicate...that's a good beginning, i mean to be friends...is still too early to after her or say i m fall in love with this gal but all i feel is peace and relax now...i never felt so for 8 months... and this time for me to relax and not to worry bout things that doesn't belong to me at all....POSITIVE...and i am fine now....watever i may happen in future, all i wan to say here is thank you all the friends for being so supportive...thx

ahhhh...

having migraine for bout a week already...but don really wish to see a doctor since the only drug they will give me is panadol...so wat for i go for them=) recently find tat before go bed have a few sips of vodka make me sleep even better and i can go in deep sleep without any disturbance..towards the end of 2007 and is a sad year for me since i lost one thing that i wish i will never pick up it before....it hurts me so much and i take months to recover and finally i let go that thing that i souldn't even think about it now..Life now busy but happy and enjoy. Earning and oso spending....hehehe...i used to spend a lot since i was from secondary school and now i realised how stupid i am to throw all the money to nowhere...m growing much more than i was, i wish to save lot so i can make my dream come true..bit hard but i am trying. Apart from tat, finding soulmate is a very long journey and i have no rush in that jz wish i will be happy and don't even have to bother about girl anymore...and relax frensss...heheh...i mean i no need to worry after a gal then kena dump again, i am totally absolutely normal and i am not gay=)

Update of recently life

i still cant figure out why i keep update my latest status...i know this blog only less than 5 ppl of fren knw bout this and i will never want other to really knw what i am thinking=) anyway, life getting even more busier than i was, almost everyweek now i got to outstation to different part in malaysia and this week i was alone driving all the way to jb. I then melacca and later muar only i back to kl...took bout one week time in southern area. eventhough i am originated from johor but honestly speaking i don really like jb cz i cnt feel any sense of belonging and secure there... this working experience there was disaster where i encounted lot of stupid so called higher educated ppl yet then keep hinting me to treat them meal for those training they suppose to learn...and like i will do so...somemore i cant tolerate with ppl forgot watever they promise to me. the journey still ok but i really don like ppl there...sori for those whose stay in jb but consider as civilized jb ppl. i apologized for u all but i really don like those idiot i encounter these past few days...then next week i dunno where i will be ended up with and hopefully i cant jz stay office to finish up some of my things...

Apart from that i met with a gal which fren introduce to me...i find it very strange that i don have those spark where i used to have when i saw my ex but she look fine to me and i think is worth it to give it a try...never felt this way after my terrible breakup bout year ago...i feel good when the new gal was with me but i still dunno her much in fact i can say i knw nth bout her besides her name. anyway i wont take any action to after this gal but i will rather spend time to knw her more see she is my type or not=) wish me good luck then=P ha..

Another week start...this week i ended up in Kota Baru- Main city in Kelatan state. Things here rather slow compare to KL and even slower than my hometown Batu Pahat. Nth really interesting here besides lot of nasi kukus and nasi kerabu. But very funny thing is in here i can see a lot of signboard in arab...road dicrectory, Ad, shop name and lot more...never expect i will see all this in m'sia. But ppl here are quite nice. Gentle and softspoken not like KL...but hardly u can find chinese here...U can only see Chinese in China town...or i will rather call it china street. The city size is not as big as KL nor Batu Pahat. not much place hanging around only one shopping more here-KB mall. but i saw a very nice cafe or i should say is a private library where they have book and very chinese type of cafe...but i don really have time to go in tat place...if i do then sure i will bring some photo here to show..haha...today is a busy day but busy for nth..kekeke....tomolo going to start training again then heading to Kemaman and K. Terengganu and Kuantan...then back kl by the day after...MIss all the things and fren in KL!!!! but wat i need to do is enjoy my time here 1st...hehehe

Very tired

this week i have been based in hospital so i need to go there everyday and work like i m one of the stuff there...is very hard expecially those doctor and nurses whose dunno u at all and see u as alien there=) today is my time for presentation to nurses regarding to my product, took it as normal task and din really put effort into it this time..hehe...after my presentation then i fall asleep there with my hands and legs opened straigh and mouth opened also...muakakakaka....lol...too tired d...last nite wen movie with housemate, on the way home then block by police car and found out that we din actually switch on the light...hahahahah....wat the crap...then kena summon kekekek...luckily isn't me the driver. with that we high till 2sth i baru go bed..this morning wake up late and forgot to iron shirt...hahahaha....wat a lousy way to start a day. then in hospital do nth actually jz keep dreaming=) very very tired....dunno why...maybe is this 2 weeks i exercised a lot till i cant afford wat i am doing. but is fine!!! keep me away from those things i don wan to face it...

A very Long day

friday nite after happy hour in home doing nth i was decided to bring housemate out for tim sum in jalan ipoh and everyone was so happy..after that home bout 2 sth and start to get sply since it was a long day for me..lot of things need to get ready in office before hand and also lot of visiting to hospital to troubleshoot. then i decided to take a nap without brush my teeth=) ( don ever let my dad know or else he will kill me for this) hahahah...then around 3 sth in the morning i received a call and jump up to take the call...hospital somewhere got problem=( then need to troubleshoot and guide them wat to do...in fact i oso not sure whether my advice is rite or wrong so need to call senior to comfirm before contact to the hospital again....this continued till 5 sth in the morning and too tired for me to think anymore...ok went sleep 6 sth and wake up 10am...call from hospital again...ahhhh....give me a break till i rest enough ....jz enough to think...hahaaha...kinda tired but very syok can handle case alone...then after a few call till 11sth.finally finished all the things and settle watever i can done for them and they are ok with that...but receive a call again ask me to go another hospital to setup the machine!!!ahhhh....but eventually the senior say he can go on his own and i promised him i will go by tomolo to check on the patient...so i need to work tomolo. So pls give me sometime to recover ya=) i will better i do some exercise lateron hahaha...enjoying working life now, so i can forget watever need to be forgotten!!! life still have to move on and i wish all the patient get well asap....be strong cz patient fight to live and yet i was because of a gal wan to give up myself is totally wrong...i wish i cound fight my life to a better end....

REal excited

this midnite received a called from colleague while i was yumcha~ing with housemate outside. Stunned...Tot got a new trial case in one hospital that they are very new to our equitment. then colleagua told me that was any case in one local hospital which need to go over to take a look.12am fetch all housemate home and grapped a jeans and wore it on. Then Speeding...met up with colleague in her house and went over the hospital. On that journey had some conversation with colleague since is my 1st real case.

Jeass : Are scared bout this sudden call since is your 1st time?
Jian : Erm... not really. in fact i am very exciting now....hahah
Jeass : Hahah....lol
Jian : Finally i got a real case which i can troubleshoot and not jz giving training.
Jeass : Ha...u r really a clinical type..

Few minutes after arrived the hospital and this is the 1st time i can park my car anywhere in that hospital!!!!hahaha....then ran over to ICU, the moment stepped in a black colour coffin was pushed out from the door where i stood with Jeass. Feeling? Numb..anything to say? Rest in peace.. then quickly went over looked for person in charge and solved the problem..

2.40am settled all, fetch jeass back and balik...the moment dropped jeass in her bf condo, tummy start maked noise. What the heck!!! Hungry...called up housemate for second round...but all slept d. Tak guna....went McD bought nugget set, back home makan and watch bleach...wuakakkaak...too excited cant sleep. makan till 3sth and finish 2 episodes then tidur. Till now i am still very excited bout this mid nite..

I am bAcK=)

haha...it's been long time i din actually login to my blog. Real busy recently and before that have a bad break up with gal so i was quite demotivated to put sth here...but I am back now...sober and positive now. I am with a company which support lot of surgical equipment in southeast asia. My job function will be giving lot of trianing to nurses and doctor regarding to the surgical thing and troubleshoot whenever encounter with some technical problem and i m quite happy with current company. The pay is quite ok and no target to hit is the most important thing=) but life nowadays quite lonely, everyday after work jz go home j. need someone to care bout me but too bad really hard for me to fall in love again...i am extremely scare of start up a new relationship! i cnt afford to lose again and cz i lost more than i can afford last time. I wish can fall in love, holding other hand and enjoy the morning walk in small park and get out togather for meal..but I scare=( so i only can see frens pak toh and i be the lightbulk all the time...anyway i need someone to talk to...anyone free then jz give me a sms or call lah=)

Third department in 2months time=)

Sound like a bit weird in 2 months time keep changing department rite=) hahaha....relax is jz that i finish my training and heading for other task. Nth to do with my performance and besides that i quite happy with my progression jz that my manager always say i m the slowest...but i don agree with tat cz if compare with other 2 girls whose enter the company with me i already finish 2 of the department and go for advanced level but one of them still in her very first depart and the other gal still in hematology1...my manager keep on complaining my progress is so slow till i delay other progression...wtk...she keep on saying i enter urinology depart for 3 week is kinda of wasting other time...but hey Ms A i actually enter tat depart for one week plus 3 days only lah...which this include my 2 day MC...is you who delay the whole progress....the first week i suppose change to urine depart is U ....U are the one who ask me remain in hemato depart since not enough stuff...then now u blame me for such stupid delaying that is cause by U...don u ever see i had done i lab...i m the one who did most of the things...try to ask around and ask those gal knw wat they doing or not...see they knw how to make conclusion when they were given a medic report...i beg they only can tell the story less than 5 min which is "I DON'T KNOW"....but anyway is ok with me since everyone in tat lab knw i am picking up fast except tat TROuble maker Ms A...but who cares? I got my own plan...jz wait and see...oh ya...next monday i will start drawing blood from patient and my training will be done with 120 patients poke by me ....hahahaha....so far i only poke 3 pity malay guy...hahahaha...my 1st is Abang Khairi 3 times,then malay dispatch boy (1time), and a technician from Sysmex which need blood badly to run the machine so here i am=) hahahah...Poking once already kao tim=) but i knw next week will be totally different since is patient so they will act totally different...anyway m ready=) hopefully wont cause trouble lah....off now...B

recent life

actually i can catogorise myself as lifeless group now, i try to plan sometime to learn for my particular interest-shooting- but this stupid lab i m working now keep me working till 8 pm or even later only i can pack my thing back...and guess wat the pay i jz get is lesser than wat i expected although my pay already very low....shit tat stupid asshole...need me finish all the job by end of the day but stingy to give OT when my OT is 500 bucks this month then they change me working time...ask me enter 1030 instead of 830 so tat i will only get my OT after 7 30...wtf...then workload still the same....fuck...so since tat day whenever there a peak season then i will work after9pm....stupid rite...today i get my pay cheaque d...is fucking fucking less...and i m the 1st get the pay among new stuff..and my collegue can even believe that our pay is so low...even a slave is better than us....her face totally stunned when saw the amout on that cheaque...suppose scientist will get a better pay rite, we are so called PROFESIONAL group rite...why our pay is so little? u may wonder how little is it rite...believe me is extremely low but i wont tell..say an amout and it may less than that...but working life keep me busy keep me away from missing a gal...a gal i love so much...away from all the thing she did to me and the cut she left me....i start to learn how to protect myself from a gal...start learning how to get used to life after work,eat alone, movie alone, shopping alone....i learn hard and hope i can used to life alone...i will try to earn as much as i can, learn to forget her since she left me no hope in patching back again...i really feel pity with ending our relationship like this, cz i love her so much but wat can i do!! Just forget her and trust no gal...treat myself good will be enough!! love myself men...and one more thing!!! I am quiting from smoking now, stop drinking oso....i stop addicted to coffee and wine now...sober lot...

Message of the day...WTK

YH :

"Wat i wanna say, i d wrote it in sms. If u cant get it, i dun thk u cn get more thing wen we meet. Bt if u d get wat i mean in sms, da's good and da's it, no need 2 meet and talk more"

First part of the sentence show that this is a girl who is very irresponsible since she put all the feeling into 160 words short message with lot of short form in that. Of course u will say the message up there still ok but honestly i already translated some of the "allien" words in to ENGLISH. With 160 words wat can u tell for a relationship? Also she try to avoid to meet with me since she know dismissed me with sms is totally unacceptable and is too much. She feels sorry to me since she don wan to see me cause she found guilty grow in her heart and she guilty for dumped a guy who love her so much and care for her.

While for the second sentence show that she afraid to confront with problem and kinda coward. She can make a even be responsible for her decision, and she afraid to admit that she is a loser cause she avoid to meet me. With 1 msg 160 words, 2 for 320 words for even more msg but how are we going to describe our feeling with that kinda little words....unless someone is very good in her language...but for YH i don think so..she cant even express her feeling when deal with people face to face and how is she going to tell everything in sms..

The last sentence, she force someone the accept her totally ridiculous decision and try to act like she is one kind and u have to accept watever she said...Oh yeah...U KNOW WAT!! U treating guys like shit like slave..Guy shouldn't be treated like tat....with statistic show that the ration of guy to girl is 1:7 now that's mean one guy got seven choice to find a partner. Since she was so lucky to have one like her so much, she abandoned him...Oh yeah...U KNOW WAT!! Don hurt people again and don ever say u fall in love with a guy anymore....Bullshit...u don even knw how to appreciate a guy....

Conclusion is that she is such a terrible girl messing around say wan find true love but hurt guys so much..She is totally irresponsible for words she said before, coward, and a girl totally dunno how to communicate with people at all..interpersonal and intrapersonal skill all failed..I now hate myself for wasting 3 year on her..she is trying to avoid me but next month is our convocation so she still will see me but too bad...now on i will treat her like a stranger and never ever believe in her..I hate her for so unfair to me!!!

Wat a loser did

I was quite confused with my feeling..She dumped me with no good explanation and she refuse to take my call or even see me, but i still cant give up like everybody said. This is my first time i learned hard to love somebody although was my second gf..I tried everything that i think is right and logical to treat her, i think i was teaching her how to be smarter. But seen like i am wrong...very very wrong....i always complaint she din talk to me and keep quiet, but i realized that she sometime did give me some of her opinion but those pieces of thinking sound like silly to me so i do give junk of rubbish to her that i am right...i think is my kinda of "Yeah, I AM RIGHT" let her feel that i am not her type...But honestly i still really cant forget her and i still very love her..can God pls give me a chance again and i promise i will do better and respect her more!I just come let go her...I love the girl too much...

Guess wat?! Officially i had been dumped...

Feel sad?!
Not really...

Feel happy?
Definitely not...

life goes on..i still have to find a job which can earn my life and continue to find wat the purpose of my life..i feel miserable even more than before...I try to be a real good boyfriend and i confuse whether i am really such a loser or not. It showed that i really don really knw how to handle a relationship and looks like i jz lose my faith on promising. Wat the hell is promise? say and forget it...yeah...sound like that...damn cool men...never ever know wat is the shit bout promise someone...end up they jz fooling around with ur trust...I am off a relationship and i m not gonna to suicide again..i am lost...

Missing KL

I had been study in KL for bout 4 years time...Back then i was a totally blanks the moment i step into this city and staying there by myself..KL is a complicated city, which i hate messy of this city and lot of chaos occur almost everyday but yet i still in love with her slowly but steady....i hate her for having some much of unwanted people and things there and of course the traffic jam and unorganised public transport, but all these create the sense of uniqueness of the city itself and the unpredictable things occur everyday which give me so kinda excitement which is really cool and u can't find it in any other city in this world....I used to say how much i hate KL and blah blah blah...but after been in singapore for about a month i start to realise that KL is such a fine city which is full of surprises...Can u ever find a place n 3am in the morning for so called supper which there is plenty Mamak stalls around and the food is so check till u can believe...compare to any other cities...Even u say Singapore have some kinda of Mamak stalls and is 24 hours, but you jz can't find the environment the people the passion being a "nite-cat" which doing nth all nite long...I missed the word "Yam Cha"...which u can never find in other country even hong kong on such an hour for supper...I miss Setapak, Wangsa Maju, Melati, Genting Klang and of course TARC...oh ya almost forgot TBR!!! Room to let
TBR...
"dao Jiong" stall=place to hang around and gossip
Wangsa Maju station which have lot of youngster wonder around
Curry Mee....

BRJ nasi lemak...

After exam

After exam wat can i do? shopping? movie? dating? hanging out? none of them seem right for me at this moment..kekeke....since m so broke now and i cant even afford a cup of coffee that i used to have=) lol.....now hope that somebody can take over my room then i no need to worry so much and enjoy my wonderful time after my last exam for my degree and probably will be my last exam in my life=) kekeke.....so basically my life is very simple after all....sit in front computer online all the time then go gf house and chit chat till late then go back watch movie that get it from yen and get my eye tired and go sleep...simple?? ya pretty...waiting time to come so that i can go home and eat watever i wan drink watever i need since CNY is coming....is going to my super super relax CNY since i no need to rush back for classes anymore!!! yuppy!!!! and since everyone complaining i also missing myself for the time being and not close enough with them....hey fren...wait for me!!! i will be home few days time!!! wuakakakakakak.....all i need to do now is get myself alive till friday and i will be home....i cant wait for that....johor i m heading to u soon....i miss everything in johor...in this 4 years i pushed myself not to go back so much to complete my degree and now here i m ....finish my degree d.....(p/s but haven knwing whether pass all or not) ....

hate me??!!shit u!!

we are under the same supervisor rite...he is mr. chia...ya is fact...but don give us the fucking face because our supervisor is him..and the fact is we are doing our project by our own not mr chia help us do all...so don give me the fucking face that u hate me because u copy and paste ur final year project.. i will help those who need to re do if they ask me to do so willingly provided they are polite enough cz i treat u as fren...but those bastard start with "u are safe since ur supervisor is mr chia" then fuck off....fuck off to ur fucking place..i don't give a fuck u fucking copycat din really realise ur fucking mistake and start fucking blaming other for doing their project by their own!!!!!! fuck !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we start our final project and seminar since 11 months ago, so don complain if we are safe....before blame anyone look at ur own mistake....i did nth wrong!!!!Mr. Chia knw alot for those experiments and we aknowlegde him but now he is not gethering invovled, so pls don pull him in and also us....

Coffee History

The history of coffee can be traced at least as early as the 9th century, in the highlands of Ethiopia. From there it spread to Egypt and Yemen, and by the fifteenth century had reached Persia, Egypt, Turkey, and northern Africa.

Coffee was at first not well received. In 1511, it was forbidden for its stimulating effect by conservative, orthodox imams at a theological court in Mecca. However, the popularity of the drink - particularly among the greek population and the intellectuals - led these bans to be overturned in 1524 by an order of the Ottoman Turkish Sultan Selim I. In Cairo, Egypt, a similar ban was instituted in 1532, and the coffeehouses and warehouses containing coffee beans were sacked.

From the Muslim world, coffee spread to Europe, where it became popular during the seventeenth century. The Dutch were the first to start the large scale importation of coffee into Europe. In 1538, Léonard Rauwolf, a German physician, having returned from a ten-year trip to the Near East, gave this description of coffee:

“A beverage as black as ink, useful against numerous illnesses, particularly those of the stomach. Its consumers take it in the morning, quite frankly, in a porcelain cup that is passed around and from which each one drinks a cupful. It is composed of water and the fruit from a bush called bunnu.”

When coffee reached the American colonies, it was initially not as successful as it had been in Europe, as colonists found it a poor substitute for alcohol. However, during the Revolutionary War, the demand for coffee increased to such an extent that dealers had to hoard their scarce supplies of it and raise prices dramatically; part of this is due to the reduced availability of tea from British merchants. Americans' taste for coffee grew during the early nineteenth century, following the War of 1812, which had temporarily cut off access to tea imports, and high demand during the American Civil War as well as many advancements in brewing technology cemented the position of coffee as an everyday commodity in America.

Source from Wikipedia

New Year countdown

It was not as fun as i thought..at first there was extremely crowded and lot of stupid idiot parents bring there baby and jump here and there. I saw one of the moron father put his baby on his shoulder then jump in the crowd and start spray here and there...totally ignore his baby safety and pressed that small kids so hard just to enjoy spray... What kinda of father he is!! Then i saw police start to clean up the snow spray before the countdown officially start which i rather glad to see so. But end up still "snowing" afterward which police cant even take any action since those idiot were extremely huge in amount. 4 spray priced RM10 which at least one person will spend RM20 and there were so many idiot and imagine if those money turn into donation to victim in Johor and Melacca should it much more meaning full! Then that stupid sprayed made me cough like shit and till now m still coughing..I swear i will never go new year countdown in sg. wang there to see how evil grow and how people start learning waste their time the moment 2007 come..

End of 2006

it's end od 2006 which me i going to work soon! even though i am planning with my master degree but i do not have a solid proposal yet for that.. I hate walking around in college nowadays since everybody start talking about what type of job they prefer and the pay and blah blah blah...life doesn't have to be like that...i don't agree with some of the people keep on talking about we shouldn't study anymore since it make your life shorter and more suffer....get away from me!!! i wish i manage to continue with my post study. I don't really prepare for a sale job for chemical or so... Besides that i found that recently i was being aggresive towards things around me... i really felt miserable at this stage and hopefully i take a short vocation....run away from kl for a short while will help a lot....so if u guys got any plan pls inform me!!!

Sorry

Recently i found out tat i was removed from my ex friendster list....kinda can understand how she feel towards me....i admit i am a shit and i let her down broke her heart. I hardly could understand how much she suffered the moment we are together. I kinda dropped her a word that i don't really want to in a relationship and then give up such a good girl that i still believe that she is!!! I am such a damn stupid moron that let her ever passed me by and without hold her back..I don't understand why i can did this to such a good girl!!!! i broke her heart and the moment she needed me and i really such a scum that turn my head away that time!!!! What's wrong with me????? i knew she loved me most that time and she can even give up her dream and everything just for me but i don even know how appreciate such a good girl....what the heck was i doing.....after broke up we still contact once awhile but getting lesser and lesser...till i forget her....and now i fight with my present girl friend and one friend make a comparison....now i can barely understand how she felt last time and she did really love me and i really such a dumb tat less her down!!!! then compare again my ex really treat me like god....she willing to did everything for me without even i asked.....but the present i got to do everything to her even she din ask.....i kinda tired of this.....i was wrong and i am extremely wrong now oso.....a relationship comes in two ways but seen like i din appreciate last time and i don have to chance to appreciate now. Is very important that u love someone and oso is very important that someone fall in the way u do. I missed the chance and i got to pay back...I wish my ex will find a better one...far much more better than me. I let her down and i wish i can make sth to pay back, but i really don know how to face her again....sorry sing ni...i let such a nice girl passed by my life like that and i really sorry hurt u so much...

sOrRy

Sorry dear that i made u felt uneasy just now and i didn't mean to hurt u with those words..I told u all this is because i hope to solve the problem not tat i wan a fight for no reason...I just don't hope that we are not happy because of trying to solve this. You know i care a lot about you..Please tell me what u feel instead of i always tell u what i want then you do what i want. You just keep all the things youself and i would love to share with you!!! Just open your heart then u can see the difference! Things will get better than you can imagine!! Love you dear...

Getting Tired of each other?!

Back to few months ago my friends, couple A, seem to be quite lovely and i really envy them for keeping their relationship so well. I wonder will i be lucky enough to have such a relationship with the girl i like.. Undoubtable they made me motivated into a relationship..they both are nice to me to themselve and to others.. But recently i found out that girl start to ignore guy and all the friends around girl start to give a strange face when guy approach to be near. I observed girl's express....she is mad .....that's what i can tell. For me if a girl still mad with u then i think the guy still have chance to do something for this relationship.. but some source told me that guy hardly can get the girl back... What a waste such a lovely couple need to end up like this. For me, i hate this happen.... at least not me not friends not any couple that should end up like this...i wish they can compromise to each other or at least still friend. They are nice folks! I like them and i wish they can get through this as soon as possible! Personally I wish this will never never never happen between me and my lovely gf=) I already didn't see her for 2days... Miss her so much!!!!

Jay's new song super nice!!!! especially 听妈妈的话 !!!

Happiness

although i am extremely busy with my study now, but i can sense a greatful happiness surrounding and keep me going further!!! Sound crazy but is true. I am learning hard to be a caring person instead of being care。

In Love?!

Recently i fall in a relationship with a girl which i love her so much that i can spend myself just for her....But this morning when i woke up, i started wondering...Why i need a relationship? Why i willing to give up i had built up so long? Why i just can't help myself to stop thinking of her? Here she come...she give me an answers...cause i like her so much and i truely fall in love with her. She gave me "NO"ssss since 2 years ago and out of sudden,me and her are falling in love...Kinda strange for me initially. I prayed hard everyday since 2 years ago that she will be mercy enough to accept me but i was wrong...then come to the stage that i nearly give up, miracle appear and God told me 'chance is coming for u son'......mind suddenly blank........speechless........happy but in the same time i was afraid that this is just a dream...a dream that the God mercy enough for me after 2 years...then she told me i am not dreaming!!!then i scared......i scared i couldn't maintain this relationship and lot and lot.....i kinda lost!!! She control every single nerve in my body...sound unbelievable but it's true...and what i can say is that i just truely fall in love with her....

Unbelievable

Unbelievable -Craig David

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

When I think of what I have,
and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

Now I see, what love means

哭

再次又感到莫名的谜茫，生活又好像漂浮着在无名大海。开学至今好像生活充满无数的起伏，生活五味参差好不快活。但回想起又觉得所谓的忙也只是一些鸡皮蒜毛的小事而已。始终，我还是有着我内心不想让人看到的一面。谁说男人就因顶天立地有泪不轻流，男人也是人 也有着软弱一面。所以不哭不代表着真男人，反而让我觉得虚伪因为他们都隐藏了他们最真的一面!说了那么多还是想好好地上一场。。。

"When the truth is ugly, people try to keep it hidden, because they know if revealed, the damage it will do. So they conceal it within sturdy walls or they place it behind closed doors or they obscure it with clever disguises but truth, no matter how ugly, always emerges. And someone we care about always ends up getting hurt. And someone else will revel in their pain and that's the ugliest truth of all.

desperate housewives

Poor Junior

This morning i was asked to invigilate junior's mid term test and was the second time i did that. A guy was found reading note inside that hall though he passed up the answer script but as a rule he cant leave when 30 minutes remain...then i went up and told him not to read the material while his friends still having exam, and i think i was polite enough to him as a senior. But the fucker threw the notes on the table and other invigilator told me that he scolded me with 3 letter words..WTF....Then he was called out after exam by lecturer....the way my lecturer did was really amazed me that he did even speak a single word...where the fucker already tell the whole sence and yet still think that he did nothing wrong talking and flicking notes inside the exam hall while the exam still on!!!! and he cried to prove his "innocence" but in fact he already admit what he did after all....What a coward guy!!! Silly...silly...silly....

My oh my!!!

Can u believe this!!!! This was the sence of the final year seminar of my course and 3 out of 5 groups are involved in this. Yet it so happened that only a few student came for the presentation by their own friends. Inside that picture is the poor YenChing that presenting.....and 4 lecturers in front that stare at her=) hehehe the other two heads were from group 2. Besides that, i only saw less than 10 ppl came out of 72 for 3groups . What the hell!!! and for those who are regularly absence themselve, ACTION will be taken and u already made those lecturers gone mad!!!!! hahahaha....good luck for u all ya

Terrible feeling strike!!!!

I am feeling damn bad now and i wish i can take a long vocation!!! just shifted met with some unconsiderate housemates, spent a lot for the room deposit and lot of thing come into one shot!! I am extremely tired and i wish i can be home for a long time and i don really want to mess with ppl here and just pretend that i am the best and i know everything and being stupid. The new house is much more better than b4, mean its condition but the housemate really donno how to be a considerate person... izzit speaker must be fully turn and the bass must strike the whole block only they will feel happy and song that remix and remix till it cant catogorise in any type of the music. i already mess my account with lot of things and now i am a total negative person....i used to be broke in the previous home there but still can afford for a nice meal and still positive my account. now i own a debt and which need a long time to pay back provided everything goes well for the coming months but this is my assumption and i doubt whether i can make it or not. some more there is a virus appear in my pc!!! the thing come out will the file name called "baca bro!!!" and i really fuck out with that since i cant even open my antivirus program!!! and thanks to a girl that pass me her pendrive for assignment, i forgive her for the very delay summition of the assignment as we agreed b4 and 'thanks' her very much for sending me that stupid fucking virus to my pc and now all my final year assignment is inside that harddisc and bless me that i will be able to fix it by today....damn it.....

Shifted=)

Changes seem to be very uncomfortable for me and the moment i shift to another house i started thinking the nice things being stay with my ex-housemate. although we did have some arguement and fight but is ok with us. They are mature, passion and full of energy. While today is the fifth week i shifted to this new place, the only thing i can sense is that housemate here are children, crappy in the sense that the way the talk...is totally unacceptable!!! Dunno start from when i cant actually talk with kids!! The way they think is totally the other way from me and my roomate. a naive face that try her very hard to break the speak by turning the volume and bass to the full end and they feel that this is cool! WTC....our thinking is totally different and i dont really know how long i can stand their childishness.... and their english sound very crappy and yet they are trying to mimic 'ang mo' that cant really talk in mandarine and always add 'yo', 'cool' and 'men' before they start a sentance!!!! and the most uneasy thing for me is that, they say they donno how to address me like the way my friends did as in "yong jian"!!!!! can u believe it!!!!! chinese school educated and yet try to pretend english as their mother tongue!!! hey, my name is yong jian and don called me something else that i really cant stand for!!! okok...u may say i am way to over reacted but give me a break ok!! i struggle hard for this whole week and i still lot of things to finish... and izzit final year must be 'awarded' so many assignment and project?

Sorry...again.... i wish i can finish all the assignment soon so that i can start my revision, 7th week coming soon so i couldn't stand continuously like this under so much of crappy pressure and stupid assignment as in i called the "ASS".

Extremely busy!!!

i am looking for room now with my fren and plan to move out from the place i stay now!!!i cant live there anymore since i feel like taking granded by my housemate.and i still doing my project, all the things seem like very unreasonable for me this few weeks. luckily i still get my result for that project=) but i still have seminar need to summit and the due date is next week.i cant fool around anymore but i cant just neglect my blog just like this, i already didn't post any entry for months and i don wan to be deleted by kah=) and i still have my assignment for the study....shit wat the crap am i doing now!!!!????

Huh...tour to Melacca?!

it's kinda wierd that i visit here without any planning as i was before. When i woke up yesterday morning, a movie came to my mind and a moviemate was needed ,at least for me. Then time to call up someone who is free, and list go like this

1. V Hann -not free.. on the way to kl
2. Seng Leong - not free... since exam is coming soon
3. Yong Keng-in Melacca since exam coming either.......

then fine!!make up my mind...go alone but suddenly Yong Keng told me that Chang went hospital 2 days before. What happened? something like swelling in some parts of his body...then rushing melacca came to mind and there will be great as in a sweet roomate try to be nice=) Fine dressed up immediately and told mom not going to have lunch home today. Bus come as alternative choose since i don have car that moment, hate to drive and don't actually know where the hell is melacca if driving alone=) then the one day trip started (thought it was) then got ticket and moving....

On the way, start calling for help and hoped desperately that someone will take me to that hospital. Unfortunately, no one did free by that time....hehehe...fine and advanture start=) finally i made my way there with an empty stomach and remember that i haven't took anything besides a little bit of carrot cake. Called Tiong for lunch by 30 minutes passed 3pm...then great meal in Sushi King and took me rm20 (quite satisfied with that) and then time to visit=) it was 5pm by then so most likely i couldn't make my way back johor.

Calling.......

Me : hello mom, i afraid that i couldn't get home by today since i reached melacca quite late...........blah blah blah.........

Mom: ok....but got any place for you to hang out the whole nite?

Me : sure (the only plan i got is just to stay in hospital....hehehehe). Probably my other friend have a king size for a nite (lying).

Mom: ok but don't hang out middle of nite.

Me: ok....and remember to keep some of the stuff u cooked for me( hehehe....a way to make my mom happy always).

Then besides visiting Chang, i also show my present to uncle opposite Chang's bed=) hehehe...gossip with stranger as usual....

time passed.....friends come and go.....

night time!!! sneak out for football match with Chang...is FA final....till 1am and fetch him back hospital then i come to seniors house for a bed=) Chang went with the needle still on his hand and 4 holes after surgery=) hahahaha.....what the crap am i doing here!

sigh...thing get stolen...BUT is not mine=)

Yesterday when i was about to finish my experiment in the lab in d204, chin seng ran to me told me that someone broke in my lecturer's room and took away all the cash and bag....hehehe...and guess what?! the thief broke in the room and open two locks without even break it and then after his excellent job he still managed to lock back all the things and get away easily!!! By the time i went back home then i saw some cops there!!! WTF!!! hehehe....my lecturer found back her bag and belonging which....hehehe.....the thief place it so nicely inside a toilet bowl few block away=) hehehe.....i wonder there must be some urine on that poor bag=P muakahahahaha......

erm....anyway i am sooooo sorry for my lecturer that i making fun of her unfortune=) hehehe...but i really admired the guy that broke in without a trace and then still able to lock all the drawer and door nicely before he left!!!! But damn him for being such stupid that did such job in tarc that people around here isn't rich enough to buy him a meal=)

Again feel miserable....Last night went out with Wei Lun dinner suddenly remind me that i haven't been dine with anybody in this pass whole month when i was in KL!! Really damn fuck men!! I couldn't stop myself for been such a loser that i can't even find a dinnermate. Perhaps i might already get used to dinner alone. And I picked up cooking but look so crappy! Anyway i did enjoy BBQ passed two days, it was so fun that few buddies gather around and having such a nice food from Jiven's mom=) ya ya, I know is quite stupid complaining here which the previous post i did wrote something about a blog i read.....But I am not crying for companionship and all that i talked about before! I just want enjoyable dinner, which means i want Fucking Nice Food!!! No more fucking instant noodles............

Childish piece of mind

This week had been read some blogs that i would never done so before. Saw lots of minds that came across with other and felt that i might be the luckiest one on this planet that able to chase what i wanted although it might be hard for me to do so sometimes but i did enjoy of what i was doing. One of the blog i read goes like complaining everyone of not treating her well, being neglected and blah blah blah that she wasn't the luckiest one and everybody turn their back to her. At first felt quite pity for her that she got a pretty face and a boyfriend that love her (erm....which i guess) but she didn't seem like appreciate on what being treated to her. The lastest post she got is like telling people that her friends having a birthday party for her is just like formality of what a human being must do on someone's birthday. What the crap!! I had been go through 21 birthdays in the hell of this world and never have a birhtday cake with me on the damn stupid 24 oct, and since she had it with friends up there and what the hell that she complaining about!!! It seem so childish to me that someone always complaining friends don't care about them and cry for it all the time! Friend doesn't mean that they have to overlap your life always and they got thier things to worry about too!! So don't put your ass to your friend all the time! Grow up girl and be considerate!

Cow BOy in the lab=)

haha...see what i did yesterday!!! hehe....like cow boy or not? Here goes with some of my pictures of i am currently doing now. Everyday more or less the same in lab and besides that most of the time i plan what i will be going to eat for lunch.....hahahahaha......

FuCK!!!

To all my dear blogmate

Whoever read this blog,can u all leave ur address of ur blog pls...Something wrong with my blog all the links gone.....*sob*.....

THanKs a lot

Yongjian

Tired.....

Had been doing my project for about 6 weeks already but feel very tired and a bit miserable. Had been 2 weeks i didn't actually see any progression there besides of washing, making stock and done nothing. Got to be moved today!!!!

I want to change my layout of this blog=) anyone got idea how to make it nicer and easy to maintain?

Bravo!! i broke the sink in lab today!!!

Dammit, i broke the stupid sink in lab today!!! The moment the sink start to sound the calculator start to court too...i wonder how much it cost and finally calculator stopped!!! time to decide....erm....what about 120 in ringgit? oh ya, it's fine with me at this rate..how much i love u god for lighten up my day...

Then ,time to inform my supervisor...he sat in his office and kinda six sensed that i did something really 'nice'. Then came across....time to inform the lab assistant, and he said never mind carry on with my job there 1st which i highlight this word 'FRIST' and he said again that they will meet up and see how. Afterthat he told that that damn stupid sink probably cost few hundreds.....Babi.....then another senior lab assistant came in (Mr. Goodguy). don worry everything will be fine and he will just inform maintance fella to fix it.....words from him make me felt better now.

Guess what i did next!!!!! Writing this stupid blog and spear out to whoever read my blog which they can laugh at me like shit=) babi!!!!!

Baceteria infected!!!

Shit!!! yesterday kena infected by E.coli and shit like hell....

Start project already=)

Now i got the reason come back to school everyday just to do my final year project which involve in culture viruses=) which for me is very cool to handle these things! but before that i gone through a very very long process with i have to autoclave all the apperatus which i will use it for my whole project and i gotta wash them for week. And guess what?! hahaahaha....i already finish all the preparation for the experiments just need to get natural sources then i can start it soon and finish i soon( provided no serious mistake occur)...and geuss what!!! i gonna use my viruses that isolated to infection my friends bacteria to see how strong it is...hahahahahahaha.....in the end only my viruses will survive.....muakahahahahaahhahaha..........

Coffee Passport

BoyBoy

This was the first look of boyboy months ago when he came to our house .............
But.....these are the pictures that currently he is (my housemate suspect he got ticks around his body so cut the fur off!!!!) So here he is..........muakhaahahahahaahahahaha.........lol............

What should i do?

Nightmare finally come!!!!is 3 months holiday which means that i wont be able to see everyone in school!!! although i will be going campus starting from next week but there wont be anyone there except those whose are carry one there finally project like me. I miss YenHoong now and friends.... tommorrow is valentine day but for sure i wont be buying roses or chocalates since i m still single...hehehe...should really pround of it? I just hope that i can fill my 3months time for somethings and for somebody.....

Exam!!!

Finally it comes to me this Saturday! Everyday study just for that freaking exam to come hehehe....so nothing much to post here and just wish me good luck ya=)

This worst things again happen to me='(

I admit that i am way too much of telling this kind of things at this moment. i screwed up myself for waiting a girl for more than one year, is kinda sad for me not because i couldn't get her as a girlfriend but is the matter of the things i had been done in this pass one year she just can't see anyone of them. She really means a lot to me! A questions from her that why i still keep waiting for her so long and is that anything so special about her. I just couldn't give her proper answer that why and why. I just into her so much and i couldn't control, i think she will avoid me for sometime for me to "calm down" starting from now. But i thinks this will be ok with me since i never draw any attention to her. This week, i used hours looking at her from the back of the lecture hall just to console myself that she will realized that i will treat her very nice more than i can do to anyone around me but she just don't let me to show that how much i care about her and the other reason is that we will be skipped 3 months for industrial training and most likely i wont be seeing her for that long and i afraid that i will forget how she look within this period. Yesterday i told myself that i don't want to staring her from the back anymore if i really still want her mine i should talk to her whenever i like and wont ever avoid eye contact with her....yes, no more chicken here! Just go for it you got nothing to lose anymore yongjian! Althogh she told me that i am not the type she want but how could a girl ever tell u she might give u a chance before if she hated you so much. I think there is still a reason. I just want to figure out! So far i had been wating so long and now i really don't even have any interest towards other girls around me. I think i in trouble since the idea that keep waiting so long for this girl maybe is just an excuse for me to avoid myself get in to a realationship. I not kinda saddism she rejected me two days ago and i felt nothing to it and i just hope that i could do anything for her. Maybe treat her nicer than me myself and audience watever or whoever she is in love with and so so...i just don't mind to be a loser......

Bad sign!!!!

yesterday was the worst for this sem!!! first, early in the morning i stepped Boyboy( a dog in my place) urine then i comfirmed sure something bad will happen...then i found out my exam is 20 days away and then i still have lot of things i haven't finish yet...that's not end of the story!!! then i went to my tutorial class and the lecturer passed me my mid term test which I FAILED MY MID TERM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is the first time that i get a shit for my mid term in the pass 3years!!! Dammit!!!

Merry X'mas

Hehe...again another X'mas that i will be alone for it. Since don't know when i started to use to with the feeling that i wont be having fun any x'mas. i try to get myself more competible but yet i still the one who single all the time ( i really hope that i can find someone who i love more than she do) maybe it should be considered as a wish for my X'mas for this year=)

Last two days my group was having a bbq for the first time in the past 3 years!!! how amazing that we all had fun that time and no one is ever left behind...i drank vodka and beer and had some puff which i felt really guilt that i broke my promise... But it was just so happening=) anyway i am not addicted anymore instead for coffee=) hehehe.....hope that we can be able to do it again right after our exam.

high fever='(

saturday night morning felling not so well. thought that maybe the whether change so doesn't really took it seriously, then nite i was like so dead can't even wake up from my bed. the worst is that i had a test this afternoon and i haven't finish studying all!!! can't help with the fever then went for doctor.. He said high fever 39'C and blah blah blah ....take medicine for 4 days if fever not gone then have to do blood test and suspect for denggi.....what the crap!!!!

Starbuck Anniversary Blend
In 1971, we opened the first Starbucks store in Seattle's Pike Place Market, sharing fresh-roasted beans and a passion for a wonderful cup of coffee with our customers.

As we've grown, we've continued to share our passion by carefully blending and roasting intrguing coffees like Satrbucks® Anniversary Blend- a distinctive mix of Asia Pacific and rare aged Indonesian beans, created once a year to celebrate our anniversary.

Smooth with deep spicy flavor notes, this is a big, bold, satisfying blend that seduces our coffee loyalists and salutes our heritage.


For the pictures above, the left hand side is the Chiristmas blends and other the other hand is the Anniversary blend which is kind of bold coffee.

Home

jz heard a song called "Home" from Michael Buble and again i miss home..... it was very hard for me to continue torturing myself with the fact that the girl i like trying to avoid me. I feel ashame to admit it since i couldn't let her get of my mind in this one year time. I tired but my heart died when i try to treat myself like this. A female friends asked : what so special about her? she is not pretty enough, and she is not even got an awesome body shape and what made u so crazy about her!!' she sound very surprise that when she found out i still waiting for that girl....i replied : ya, she is not very pretty than it is good that i after her is not because of her appearance!

But why!! till now i still cant figure out=( i giving up my relationship with a girl that i feel very sorry to her with i really could give her any commitment and the other with she tried to hint me that she got feeling on me but i just turn my back to her just because of the girl that i after( i think should give her a code or nick that easier to understand.......erm.....what JA? i use to call her like this with my friends) Y'day during my lab while i tried to give a break for me to get rid of her for 1 second i went boyroom to wash my face, and i saw her!!!coming out but immediately she saw me then she went in again as in like try to joining her friends...Heart break......

After her for one year already, i didn't actually chat with her personally much. But i found that the most joyful moment is that i chat with her day before her b'day although is just one and the half hour, it really make me feel like the only men in the world or maybe something more than that..Then tried to ask her out for a meal but she refused as she already date with her friends for her birthday. Then i went to the chilis with my housemate as i say treat her as a celebration for her coming b'day, but the reason is that i jz hope that i can get out so that i still have the very very minute chance to meet her somewhere....then end up i spend hundred for a meal and yet i still cant see her. How silly i am='( But i just want to be with her that's is, i don't think i will be a lousy partner till i ignore her feeling and share her everything if she want to. I don't mind her take me for granted, but i know she wont since she don't even want to face me. i am such a useless person which i am so weak of trying to hold someone hand.....

what should i say oh?

recently nothing special, just that i am too busy to write something here=( i got lot of assignment that looks like never end and document that need to be signed. Then this two days my roomate bring his gal back home and stay here, so my area have been restricted for just my table. they watch dvd inside my room , making noise inside that ( actually i m so curious that what they were doing inside....hahahaha) and then ...... lot of things....hehehehe.....which i dont think that i will know since they are behind the door=) lol.....

I found that i went back bp frequently this few weeks which i dont know whether is good or not. I haven't be liked this since i study in secondary school. I can say that i usually wont go home except something urget, but i did it for this few weeks..what's wrong with me??? i wonder...hahajhaha...but is a good sign right since i started to miss my bed and my parent. But when i get home i found that not much friends i have, i stayed home and do nothing beside chatting with my mum. When i went out for my return ticket and salon, i wish to call someone but i just can't recall whoever i can call!!! And i concluded that i had been losing so much friends or in fact they didn't actually thinks that way. I found that only few still keep in touch with me then no one else and those who contact me are those who staying oversea now. How dissappointed i am for being so useless for keeping friend=( What should i do?

WTF

Extremely early in the morning about 3am, i was being scold by a jerk till i woke up by his language! WTF! is he losing his mind of scolding people without any reason! HE LOST HIS PHONE CHARGER!! and how pity he is by losing a charges so he cant chat with his lovely girlfriend around 3am and she had exam paper next morning!!! Is he a nut no!! i can tell that he definitely not a nut, but an ASSHOLE!!!! First i am totally innocent for keeping his charger away and in fact he always throw his charger around my place so usually i will put it back to his place. Do i did anything wrong? and i did even touch his charger for month since i swap handset with my bro so i m using sony ericsson fucker. then by that time he couldn't find his dick, he started to curse by family, me and some sort of like being crash by car blah blah blah.....it was so loud until woke me up and fuck on my face. i told him that i din touch his things for months but he just cant stop shitting with his mouth. Then he went to his sister room and it was in her room!!!! and the moment he get back the charger from that room he knew it was not my false and i m not the person to be blamed....right i did nothing....but he still continue cursing me....wat the fuck men!!! get away from my life and i m so glad that he will be moving soon but before that please return my money asshole....enough for ur shit that u don have money and blah blah blah, i know u jerk giving excuse!!!!

so dead.....

I was so dead today...thought that i will enjoy school after come back from long holiday, but the moment i step to the lecture hall everybody was like rushing toward me for money. Hey!!Give me a break okay!!! here come and say have a bill that cost hundred and then the other one say got that bill cost few hundreds and yet i have to chasing money from other people...then my super stupid jerk roomate haven't pay me back the rental for last month!!!! i am officially broke sooner so if u, jerk, see this please pay me back the money!!!! Dont keep saying you have no money and blah blah blah and yet you still have the money for nonsense. And today is the due date for rental to my landlord and no one pass the their rental to me!!!! Why must i remind you all every months!!!!! are u all nut!!!!!????? i am extremely tired chasing money here and there already....I don't like to begging money everyday. IT IS NOT MY JOB TO DO THAT!!!! you all should know that you need to pass me the rental latest by 7th every month, why must i nagging every months? cant you just save the rental as you know that you must pay instead of keep on staying here, why you all jerks spend every penny u have just for so called 'entertaintment'!!!! To me, all the things u did for denying to pay the rental on time are every selfish and please stop it if you still like the place you are staying now.......I AM VERY TIRED FOR CHASING MONEY EVERYDAY!!!!! Dammit!

my 21th birthday

hehehe......babi guess what i got for my birthday this year=) a piece of card from the girl who rejected me so many times and a FISH!!!!!!!! Muahahahahaha.....i can't believe that i got a fish for my birthday......the first day i brough her/him....i also not too sure is him or her....hahahaha.....my housemates all threaten me that they will cook the fish....how dare they do that to him(maybe) but i promise the one who gave me that i will protect him till i die...hahahahaha.....and i received lot of msg which from those who i really dont know them well or hanging with them all the time...but thanks for them being so sweet to me=) thanks ya.... and i received one call from SHindi....hehehe...chat quite long.Then....end of my 21th birthday='( how sad....no celebration,no party,not even a person who willing to spend dinner with and i ate instant noodle for my birthday dinner!!!! Who will believe this kinda shit happened to me....
so i decided not to celebrate my birthday as in not one will really care about that....how sad.....

Then yesterday really made me felt so uneasy...from the 1st stupid replacement lecture till my jeans gone.......i was teasing by my stupid lecturer in front of the whole damn class sound like....if i were you i will not making a dim sound when i enter the hall if i m late and blah blah blah......she is really a painass in my life!!!Dammit!!! then my jeans which i really love so much was seriously 'hurt' by my roomate who borrowed from me this week and he kinda denied everythings he did.....i was damn pissed of by him! not because the jeans was gone but the kinda attitude that he tried to deny and i really don't mind what happen to my jeans but at least i want to know who did.....but no one does!!!!! and they sound like i did myself and try to blame someone....what f*ck men!!!! it wont be next time for that particular person using my things!!!!!

Again

Yesterday gal messenged me and planning the visit to my house by friday, it was fine with me that she want to visit...well i mean at first....i really hope she can come and i really wanted to talk to her about our relationship which she keep on asking me to think about it carefully. Then when i was sured that it wont be wrong suddenly she came out all sort of funny questions that i really hate to hear and answer!!!But unfortunally she did and not only once she did it to me, if a girl really want to fall into a relationship with you, why must she question over and over!!!! I know you may say that she want to comfirm or sort of feel confident about this and that and blah blah blah.....but she has to realise that in a relationship not just that she will feel neglect or suffer all the time. What about guys?? We also bloody human that have the same things that girls called EMOTION...I had enough with this kind of joke!!!! I really dont like to be fooled around by a girl that just keep on say that she love you and blah blah blah and yet make your life doom. I mad at her last night about what she did and i told her that and she said she knew that and apologized...But for sure i know she will repeat what she did or some kind of unpredictable nonsense to knock you all the way hell. Maybe this friday i will tell her that i dont hope to be like this or maybe i will mercy enough to keep it myself again...who know what i wil do by friday. I dont really seem to be extremely handsome or charming but why she so in love with me which i cant really figure out for long time.....this is insane! she doesn't even know what kind of man i am and what i am thinking!!! I just hope that i will not trouble by this girl anymore either dump her or keep helding her hand...Give me a break okay???

Shit!!

Why everytime when people are happying for something or somebody must have some stupid situation that ruin in the whole thing! I was so desperated for my starting lesson again why must something that i do not wish to know pop up out of sudden!! I am not blaming anyone but hey GOD give me a break and i will have lot of thing to do starting from now....I really don care about what thing that i had been told, but i just cant totally igonore it like nothing happened before...

exam agian='(

what can i say when come to this topic??!! stress? (naa...i don think anyone will be as stress as my roomate which study more than 12 hours everysingle day and yet he claims that i can't finish...BUT HE STARTED HIS STUDY LONG BEFORE THE EXAM!!! Relax? neither me or anyone in my house now relax than my another housemate jianxi which sleep all the from his bed to chang's then to mine!!!! can u believe this!!!! Then study smart.....again not as smart as my girl housemate yijing which finish 3 extremely thick law books within one night and still survive from that..... I will rather consider myself in between these 3 crazy fella....i study just like having a small quiz,....30minutes study always leads me to 2 hours sleep hours....fixing pipe, wash my clothes, making tea& coffee, delivery lunch@ dinner all are the consequences after study....perhaps i should damn myself for being so relax,right?And I STILL CAN'T CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDY!! coming week is my exam already. Applied zoology is the first which need to memorizes most of the farm animals reproductive system, synchronisation...blah blah blah....and it need hardwork to memorise..but i just can't concentrate....

Ok let forget about that......not forever at least a moment,okay? Finally i finish my responsibility for being a tresurer for this semester and actually there was some problems regarding to collection money and the billing things but now settled=) hehehe...hope next sem i can handdle better..Just after my lecture and actually it's quite a boring class which the lecturer always mumble to himself and sometimes it really make me feel that he was speaking alien language!!! oh ya he is a Ph.d in chemistry quite a wise person....Always showed his loyalty to Lord ( that's mean his talk about Jesus all the time) P/S : i am not dicriminate christian but he just over do it. At a result, we still need to come his lecture for the every last week before exam!!! i swear to god that i really worked hard this sem compare to previous but i can't understand alien language!!!! ( please ...if anyone know where have some courses regarding to this type of language, tell me!!! i really wish wish to know him well) Compare to another chemistry lecturer , Dr. Tang is more experienced that Dr. Wong! Altough the first sight i saw him i was like.....shiao he must be very strict on study and god bless me ( in fact he wasn't that bad, he is strict upon ur timetable but he really really put in afford to not just teaching but using some human language which more easier to digest) Tell u one thing about him...he was head of Department of the chemistry and biology, have a godfather look and u are timid type i advise u to take withdrawing form immediately=P hehehe..... God bless i will see him for my next sem....

One things....it occured last night after dinner with my roomate. While waiting people rushing out from the lift we saw three negro female coming out which three of them wrapped themselve with black!!! Okay them we just entered the lift and a guy entered....then my roomate ,chang, suddenly laughing and couldn't really stop himself....i wondered...so i let him cool down bit and waiting....then suddenly he stopped and spoke out "WIB" which is not funny at all.I asked what the hell is that stand for and yet he was able to speaking out Women in Black while laughing.... i did want to laugh on it, but i didn''t..Because there was a male negro stood in front of me and when chang still holding himself for laughing, that extremely black guy was staring at me and i wonder what will he think bout our conversation about (maybe) his lovers...hahahahaha....then when the door opened he was out with us and i saw lot of negro which are extremely gaint standing very near....the first thing i could think of is run as fast as possible and yet chang still holding his stupid stomach for that stupid joke!!!! then he realised that something is not right and we quickly ran to our house. God bless they din chase us out for that stupi stupi joke. So, advise to u, never never make fun or dicriminate those who really cant take the joke and i can say that we were lucky enough that surviving without breaking bones!!!

Touch!!!

After watched the movie called 'Chicken Rice War' about 2 years ago, i still can remember the poem that said by the guy called Fanson in that movie!!! I can forget the line he mention... okay it goes like this.....


Your beauty is beyond the highest hills i can climb.
To touch you is like feeling a ray of light.
I dream of you everyday and throughout the might.
The thought thatyou are near is heavenly sublime,
but i know reaching you is an impossible dream.
How can an angel possibly see beyond her light?

Blah Blah Blah...testing 1 2 3

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Have a look='(

Executive Comettees of Society of Chemistry and Biology

President :Kuan Yong Jian

Vice President :Vincent

Secretary :Hue Hue

Tresurer :Felicia Ng

Auditor :Tang Sue Hua

Male Representative :Soon Yang Chong

Female Representative :Chan Yen Wen

See??? I am so glad that being elected by the course for being the president of this society.........at first ....but it means i have to take the resposibility for one year to take good care of this society and organise at least one activity such as trip to somewhere else that will need lot of meeting and paperwork to get the college sign the damn permission to keep this society alive...i still wonder now whether i can make it or not=) hehehe....and don't call me Mr.President, okay! It sound so weird!!!

Damned Stupid Indonesian Who Start This Haze

I can't stop myself from damning the stupid Indonesian (referred to those started open burning things)!!!!! and because of them i also can't stop myself from coughing since last night till now. I had enough of this haze since i was born in Johor!!!! They had been repeated over and over this stupid activities and yet the Indonesia' Environment Minister kept promised this problems will reduce, it still happen!!!! And it is happening right here right now where i stay!!!! And now i am feeling extremely not right like chaining for 2 packs of cigarettes!!!! What the heck they doing up there right in Indonesia now????? Burning their smartass there???? Bloody hell,why can't they just realize that they are doing nothing than causing trouble. I can't help myself to curse them by making me cough and sooner or later i got to go for doctor!
Once again curse them burn by the fire they made as a retribution for being such a smartass!

Hehe...here still got more pictures and i have a lot!!But due to the stupid streamys, the connection is far too slow to upload at one time=(

Convocation

Since there is nothing special besides having my convocation last week here are some of the pictures i took with friends....


and more......

Selfishness

Having chemistry practical today and i realized that some of my group members can be that selfished!!! Start from this Wednesday, one of my group member which i don't really have a good impression since the very first moment i met him, we supposed to do centrifugation and the instrument supposingly is one for each group, then the fella just came to my table and simply took away my apparatus without asking and by that time i was looking at him!!!! and what pissed me is that he glared at me for a short while then took away a "lan si" face....Damn him!!!! If he is not my friend's boyfriend, i will nail him behind that lab and shoot him off. Because of him, my group finished the experiment late..and i have to apologize to my friends....If i shoot him off that time then you all no need to wait that long. While today's experiment supposed i can come home earlier, but the lovely couple really share the same bitchy behavour that put them together...what's that....SELFISH!!!!! They just concern about themselve and never bother about queueing. Everybody doing the same experiment and waithing for the same instrument, why must they jump queue and don't even realise that they are extremely rude to those whose are queueing. As a conclusion i can puzzle up why they are couple! Bless them won't be so selfish towards each other.

Freak me out again and again

I curse the streamyx being so uneffectiveness and useless!!!!!Dammit for such a lousy company that cant even provide a service as they promised!!!! They told us that our area is not yet covered with the streamyx service and why at the first place they approched our application? And why the neighbour 2 doors away have their streamyx for 2years!!!!! Being such a major telecommuniction company in Malaysia, why just can they provide such a simple service???And need us to call everyday?? And the advertisement that show the word "PROMISING" is just for fun??Dammit again for employed a bunch of operators that cant even speak in english and showed us such a bad manner!!!! One of the operators that told us that we shouldn't apply the streamyx since my area is not cover by them...ok fine,but that is after my activation of my streamyx account and when i told him that 2doors away have streamyx for 2 years then that stupid malay guy said "Kalau macam itu lucky lah mereka"(very irritating tone).....Can you believe this!!!! What kind of operators they are? How can they react like this? While,other operators tried hard to run away from their responsibility for this. Transferring us from one department to another,such as the activation department said we should call the technician department in the first place to confirm the line and all the cables things are getting done.Then fine we called and the technician department told us that we are still within 14days warranty of the activation department and we should call back to the department!!!! Fuck them!!!! Then where the heck should i called to get their ass from their chair and get the things done???? Is this the PROMISING that said the streamyx will be done within one week time??? Where should i call? What should i do? Why dont they just reject our application at the first place since my area do not have the coverage????????? WHY?????? Assholes!!!They are good for nothing except being parasites!!!!!!

Wasting time=)

As in a advanced year student, i should hardwork than before.but recently i found that most of my time spend for nothing and i couldn't finish my homework and report earlier (hehe,my record was 5 report didn't handup on time and begged for delay from the lecturers, luckily they still let go me) So,i need to be more organized!! Anyway,I wasted lot of time in nothing. So i should make a change for my lifestyle so that i will not GOOD FOR NOTHING =)

Well, beside that i really very freak out with the TM NET company and sickening for their service hotline!!!I had been calling that line about an hour for each day continueously 2weeks!!! And end up i still can use my streamyx. What the heck they are doing up there?? Waste my money and the bill is started running from 5July now!!! And what more that they are having such lousy operators that don't even know what the manner should they hold as in talk to customer!!

Another thing is that i had been going back hometown for 3 weekends. Can you believe that? I mean as in people who know me that I seldom go back that frequent...wasting the time travelling in bus and do nothing...Shit men and i swear to myself not for next week again since i haven't study for my midterm test!!!

Hehehe.....conclusion I am not good for nothing!!!!! At least i know the way of wasting time =P

P/S.....What kind of dude I am=)