New life for advance year!

After struggling for two year, finally i had made through it and completing my diploma=) Well.. honestly I played a lot in this two year time and i didn't really put my effort in my study. Playing was the priority for me in order to motivate myself for study and I don’t really appreciate my time being a college student. Although I didn’t skip classes often, most of the time I was dreaming and wandering what am I supposed to be or why I can’t get what I want. What a stupid teenage in the age of 20!!!!

Thankfully, by the help of God I am able to finish my diploma. By the way I am in the age of 21… Now I can be considered as an adult already and I really hope to be a real man!!! But…if the definition is based on the size of the body, still get long way to go…hahahaha… An adult shouldn’t skip classes anymore and be more responsible, right=) what if I skip the first day of my advance year??!!! Hahaha…I really mean what I said!!!!!yo…I will do that due to my driving test! ( what a shame that a guy take his driving license by 21) hahaha….not more limo for me already=’(

This holiday I picked up a hobbit by playing snooker=) and due to the mentality of Malaysian that snooker is smoker had be set in my parent’s mind, turned up I only started my lesson by 20!!!! Can you believe this!!!!! Anyway, I already mastered a bit the skill of snooker. Hehe.. an advice for those who want to learn snooker!!! Stop thinking that, it’s a very expensive activity=)

Companionship

Why should people need companion for their life?Loneliness really can kill someone?I used to my freedom now while i thirst for a relationship that can keep me back to ground. A girl told me that I should think about this carefully before I hurt someone again. I scare to fall in a relationship! I don't know why, jz very scare='( Maybe is kind of intrinsic self protection keep me from fall in love with girl...Anyway i should clearify that i am definately real guy!!I don't have problem with girl,okey =P hahaha....I really don't have any idea what should i go for next.

Companionship can be defined as living or travelling with another. While I prefer the meaning travelling than living togather with another.Why am i said so?Life is kind of journey, we need to go further through every stages. While the word 'living' is like staying on a particular stage that mean that they don't want to move on! That defination definately is off from my list! With no financial basic to promise other's life, i can't give any reason for her to stay with me on that stage.This is not fair for her and me!Travelling more suit me for now since i am now on the way searching for the meaning of life, travel from one stage to another learning from a to z..That make me feel more comfortable than giving promises stop on a particular stage.

Besides that, i really can't figure out what is the priority for me now. I afraid that i can't give her a whealthy life cause is hard to promise. But i really scare in a relationship, can't even tell why. Maybe my life should fill with loneliness than happiness since lonely can make someone be stronger and stronger. What should i do? Maybe the final solution is to be a damn stupid lonely old man in the end.....What do u think?