Friday, October 28, 2005

my 21th birthday

hehehe......babi guess what i got for my birthday this year=) a piece of card from the girl who rejected me so many times and a FISH!!!!!!!! Muahahahahaha.....i can't believe that i got a fish for my birthday......the first day i brough her/him....i also not too sure is him or her....hahahaha.....my housemates all threaten me that they will cook the fish....how dare they do that to him(maybe) but i promise the one who gave me that i will protect him till i die...hahahahaha.....and i received lot of msg which from those who i really dont know them well or hanging with them all the time...but thanks for them being so sweet to me=) thanks ya.... and i received one call from SHindi....hehehe...chat quite long.Then....end of my 21th birthday='( how sad....no celebration,no party,not even a person who willing to spend dinner with and i ate instant noodle for my birthday dinner!!!! Who will believe this kinda shit happened to me....
so i decided not to celebrate my birthday as in not one will really care about that....how sad.....

Then yesterday really made me felt so uneasy...from the 1st stupid replacement lecture till my jeans gone.......i was teasing by my stupid lecturer in front of the whole damn class sound like....if i were you i will not making a dim sound when i enter the hall if i m late and blah blah blah......she is really a painass in my life!!!Dammit!!! then my jeans which i really love so much was seriously 'hurt' by my roomate who borrowed from me this week and he kinda denied everythings he did.....i was damn pissed of by him! not because the jeans was gone but the kinda attitude that he tried to deny and i really don't mind what happen to my jeans but at least i want to know who did.....but no one does!!!!! and they sound like i did myself and try to blame someone....what f*ck men!!!! it wont be next time for that particular person using my things!!!!!

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Again

Yesterday gal messenged me and planning the visit to my house by friday, it was fine with me that she want to visit...well i mean at first....i really hope she can come and i really wanted to talk to her about our relationship which she keep on asking me to think about it carefully. Then when i was sured that it wont be wrong suddenly she came out all sort of funny questions that i really hate to hear and answer!!!But unfortunally she did and not only once she did it to me, if a girl really want to fall into a relationship with you, why must she question over and over!!!! I know you may say that she want to comfirm or sort of feel confident about this and that and blah blah blah.....but she has to realise that in a relationship not just that she will feel neglect or suffer all the time. What about guys?? We also bloody human that have the same things that girls called EMOTION...I had enough with this kind of joke!!!! I really dont like to be fooled around by a girl that just keep on say that she love you and blah blah blah and yet make your life doom. I mad at her last night about what she did and i told her that and she said she knew that and apologized...But for sure i know she will repeat what she did or some kind of unpredictable nonsense to knock you all the way hell. Maybe this friday i will tell her that i dont hope to be like this or maybe i will mercy enough to keep it myself again...who know what i wil do by friday. I dont really seem to be extremely handsome or charming but why she so in love with me which i cant really figure out for long time.....this is insane! she doesn't even know what kind of man i am and what i am thinking!!! I just hope that i will not trouble by this girl anymore either dump her or keep helding her hand...Give me a break okay???

Monday, October 10, 2005

Shit!!

Why everytime when people are happying for something or somebody must have some stupid situation that ruin in the whole thing! I was so desperated for my starting lesson again why must something that i do not wish to know pop up out of sudden!! I am not blaming anyone but hey GOD give me a break and i will have lot of thing to do starting from now....I really don care about what thing that i had been told, but i just cant totally igonore it like nothing happened before...