Bad sign!!!!

yesterday was the worst for this sem!!! first, early in the morning i stepped Boyboy( a dog in my place) urine then i comfirmed sure something bad will happen...then i found out my exam is 20 days away and then i still have lot of things i haven't finish yet...that's not end of the story!!! then i went to my tutorial class and the lecturer passed me my mid term test which I FAILED MY MID TERM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is the first time that i get a shit for my mid term in the pass 3years!!! Dammit!!!

Merry X'mas

Hehe...again another X'mas that i will be alone for it. Since don't know when i started to use to with the feeling that i wont be having fun any x'mas. i try to get myself more competible but yet i still the one who single all the time ( i really hope that i can find someone who i love more than she do) maybe it should be considered as a wish for my X'mas for this year=)

Last two days my group was having a bbq for the first time in the past 3 years!!! how amazing that we all had fun that time and no one is ever left behind...i drank vodka and beer and had some puff which i felt really guilt that i broke my promise... But it was just so happening=) anyway i am not addicted anymore instead for coffee=) hehehe.....hope that we can be able to do it again right after our exam.

high fever='(

saturday night morning felling not so well. thought that maybe the whether change so doesn't really took it seriously, then nite i was like so dead can't even wake up from my bed. the worst is that i had a test this afternoon and i haven't finish studying all!!! can't help with the fever then went for doctor.. He said high fever 39'C and blah blah blah ....take medicine for 4 days if fever not gone then have to do blood test and suspect for denggi.....what the crap!!!!

Starbuck Anniversary Blend
In 1971, we opened the first Starbucks store in Seattle's Pike Place Market, sharing fresh-roasted beans and a passion for a wonderful cup of coffee with our customers.

As we've grown, we've continued to share our passion by carefully blending and roasting intrguing coffees like Satrbucks® Anniversary Blend- a distinctive mix of Asia Pacific and rare aged Indonesian beans, created once a year to celebrate our anniversary.

Smooth with deep spicy flavor notes, this is a big, bold, satisfying blend that seduces our coffee loyalists and salutes our heritage.


For the pictures above, the left hand side is the Chiristmas blends and other the other hand is the Anniversary blend which is kind of bold coffee.

Home

jz heard a song called "Home" from Michael Buble and again i miss home..... it was very hard for me to continue torturing myself with the fact that the girl i like trying to avoid me. I feel ashame to admit it since i couldn't let her get of my mind in this one year time. I tired but my heart died when i try to treat myself like this. A female friends asked : what so special about her? she is not pretty enough, and she is not even got an awesome body shape and what made u so crazy about her!!' she sound very surprise that when she found out i still waiting for that girl....i replied : ya, she is not very pretty than it is good that i after her is not because of her appearance!

But why!! till now i still cant figure out=( i giving up my relationship with a girl that i feel very sorry to her with i really could give her any commitment and the other with she tried to hint me that she got feeling on me but i just turn my back to her just because of the girl that i after( i think should give her a code or nick that easier to understand.......erm.....what JA? i use to call her like this with my friends) Y'day during my lab while i tried to give a break for me to get rid of her for 1 second i went boyroom to wash my face, and i saw her!!!coming out but immediately she saw me then she went in again as in like try to joining her friends...Heart break......

After her for one year already, i didn't actually chat with her personally much. But i found that the most joyful moment is that i chat with her day before her b'day although is just one and the half hour, it really make me feel like the only men in the world or maybe something more than that..Then tried to ask her out for a meal but she refused as she already date with her friends for her birthday. Then i went to the chilis with my housemate as i say treat her as a celebration for her coming b'day, but the reason is that i jz hope that i can get out so that i still have the very very minute chance to meet her somewhere....then end up i spend hundred for a meal and yet i still cant see her. How silly i am='( But i just want to be with her that's is, i don't think i will be a lousy partner till i ignore her feeling and share her everything if she want to. I don't mind her take me for granted, but i know she wont since she don't even want to face me. i am such a useless person which i am so weak of trying to hold someone hand.....

what should i say oh?

recently nothing special, just that i am too busy to write something here=( i got lot of assignment that looks like never end and document that need to be signed. Then this two days my roomate bring his gal back home and stay here, so my area have been restricted for just my table. they watch dvd inside my room , making noise inside that ( actually i m so curious that what they were doing inside....hahahaha) and then ...... lot of things....hehehehe.....which i dont think that i will know since they are behind the door=) lol.....

I found that i went back bp frequently this few weeks which i dont know whether is good or not. I haven't be liked this since i study in secondary school. I can say that i usually wont go home except something urget, but i did it for this few weeks..what's wrong with me??? i wonder...hahajhaha...but is a good sign right since i started to miss my bed and my parent. But when i get home i found that not much friends i have, i stayed home and do nothing beside chatting with my mum. When i went out for my return ticket and salon, i wish to call someone but i just can't recall whoever i can call!!! And i concluded that i had been losing so much friends or in fact they didn't actually thinks that way. I found that only few still keep in touch with me then no one else and those who contact me are those who staying oversea now. How dissappointed i am for being so useless for keeping friend=( What should i do?

WTF

Extremely early in the morning about 3am, i was being scold by a jerk till i woke up by his language! WTF! is he losing his mind of scolding people without any reason! HE LOST HIS PHONE CHARGER!! and how pity he is by losing a charges so he cant chat with his lovely girlfriend around 3am and she had exam paper next morning!!! Is he a nut no!! i can tell that he definitely not a nut, but an ASSHOLE!!!! First i am totally innocent for keeping his charger away and in fact he always throw his charger around my place so usually i will put it back to his place. Do i did anything wrong? and i did even touch his charger for month since i swap handset with my bro so i m using sony ericsson fucker. then by that time he couldn't find his dick, he started to curse by family, me and some sort of like being crash by car blah blah blah.....it was so loud until woke me up and fuck on my face. i told him that i din touch his things for months but he just cant stop shitting with his mouth. Then he went to his sister room and it was in her room!!!! and the moment he get back the charger from that room he knew it was not my false and i m not the person to be blamed....right i did nothing....but he still continue cursing me....wat the fuck men!!! get away from my life and i m so glad that he will be moving soon but before that please return my money asshole....enough for ur shit that u don have money and blah blah blah, i know u jerk giving excuse!!!!

so dead.....

I was so dead today...thought that i will enjoy school after come back from long holiday, but the moment i step to the lecture hall everybody was like rushing toward me for money. Hey!!Give me a break okay!!! here come and say have a bill that cost hundred and then the other one say got that bill cost few hundreds and yet i have to chasing money from other people...then my super stupid jerk roomate haven't pay me back the rental for last month!!!! i am officially broke sooner so if u, jerk, see this please pay me back the money!!!! Dont keep saying you have no money and blah blah blah and yet you still have the money for nonsense. And today is the due date for rental to my landlord and no one pass the their rental to me!!!! Why must i remind you all every months!!!!! are u all nut!!!!!????? i am extremely tired chasing money here and there already....I don't like to begging money everyday. IT IS NOT MY JOB TO DO THAT!!!! you all should know that you need to pass me the rental latest by 7th every month, why must i nagging every months? cant you just save the rental as you know that you must pay instead of keep on staying here, why you all jerks spend every penny u have just for so called 'entertaintment'!!!! To me, all the things u did for denying to pay the rental on time are every selfish and please stop it if you still like the place you are staying now.......I AM VERY TIRED FOR CHASING MONEY EVERYDAY!!!!! Dammit!

my 21th birthday

hehehe......babi guess what i got for my birthday this year=) a piece of card from the girl who rejected me so many times and a FISH!!!!!!!! Muahahahahaha.....i can't believe that i got a fish for my birthday......the first day i brough her/him....i also not too sure is him or her....hahahaha.....my housemates all threaten me that they will cook the fish....how dare they do that to him(maybe) but i promise the one who gave me that i will protect him till i die...hahahahaha.....and i received lot of msg which from those who i really dont know them well or hanging with them all the time...but thanks for them being so sweet to me=) thanks ya.... and i received one call from SHindi....hehehe...chat quite long.Then....end of my 21th birthday='( how sad....no celebration,no party,not even a person who willing to spend dinner with and i ate instant noodle for my birthday dinner!!!! Who will believe this kinda shit happened to me....
so i decided not to celebrate my birthday as in not one will really care about that....how sad.....

Then yesterday really made me felt so uneasy...from the 1st stupid replacement lecture till my jeans gone.......i was teasing by my stupid lecturer in front of the whole damn class sound like....if i were you i will not making a dim sound when i enter the hall if i m late and blah blah blah......she is really a painass in my life!!!Dammit!!! then my jeans which i really love so much was seriously 'hurt' by my roomate who borrowed from me this week and he kinda denied everythings he did.....i was damn pissed of by him! not because the jeans was gone but the kinda attitude that he tried to deny and i really don't mind what happen to my jeans but at least i want to know who did.....but no one does!!!!! and they sound like i did myself and try to blame someone....what f*ck men!!!! it wont be next time for that particular person using my things!!!!!

Again

Yesterday gal messenged me and planning the visit to my house by friday, it was fine with me that she want to visit...well i mean at first....i really hope she can come and i really wanted to talk to her about our relationship which she keep on asking me to think about it carefully. Then when i was sured that it wont be wrong suddenly she came out all sort of funny questions that i really hate to hear and answer!!!But unfortunally she did and not only once she did it to me, if a girl really want to fall into a relationship with you, why must she question over and over!!!! I know you may say that she want to comfirm or sort of feel confident about this and that and blah blah blah.....but she has to realise that in a relationship not just that she will feel neglect or suffer all the time. What about guys?? We also bloody human that have the same things that girls called EMOTION...I had enough with this kind of joke!!!! I really dont like to be fooled around by a girl that just keep on say that she love you and blah blah blah and yet make your life doom. I mad at her last night about what she did and i told her that and she said she knew that and apologized...But for sure i know she will repeat what she did or some kind of unpredictable nonsense to knock you all the way hell. Maybe this friday i will tell her that i dont hope to be like this or maybe i will mercy enough to keep it myself again...who know what i wil do by friday. I dont really seem to be extremely handsome or charming but why she so in love with me which i cant really figure out for long time.....this is insane! she doesn't even know what kind of man i am and what i am thinking!!! I just hope that i will not trouble by this girl anymore either dump her or keep helding her hand...Give me a break okay???

Shit!!

Why everytime when people are happying for something or somebody must have some stupid situation that ruin in the whole thing! I was so desperated for my starting lesson again why must something that i do not wish to know pop up out of sudden!! I am not blaming anyone but hey GOD give me a break and i will have lot of thing to do starting from now....I really don care about what thing that i had been told, but i just cant totally igonore it like nothing happened before...

exam agian='(

what can i say when come to this topic??!! stress? (naa...i don think anyone will be as stress as my roomate which study more than 12 hours everysingle day and yet he claims that i can't finish...BUT HE STARTED HIS STUDY LONG BEFORE THE EXAM!!! Relax? neither me or anyone in my house now relax than my another housemate jianxi which sleep all the from his bed to chang's then to mine!!!! can u believe this!!!! Then study smart.....again not as smart as my girl housemate yijing which finish 3 extremely thick law books within one night and still survive from that..... I will rather consider myself in between these 3 crazy fella....i study just like having a small quiz,....30minutes study always leads me to 2 hours sleep hours....fixing pipe, wash my clothes, making tea& coffee, delivery lunch@ dinner all are the consequences after study....perhaps i should damn myself for being so relax,right?And I STILL CAN'T CONCENTRATE ON MY STUDY!! coming week is my exam already. Applied zoology is the first which need to memorizes most of the farm animals reproductive system, synchronisation...blah blah blah....and it need hardwork to memorise..but i just can't concentrate....

Ok let forget about that......not forever at least a moment,okay? Finally i finish my responsibility for being a tresurer for this semester and actually there was some problems regarding to collection money and the billing things but now settled=) hehehe...hope next sem i can handdle better..Just after my lecture and actually it's quite a boring class which the lecturer always mumble to himself and sometimes it really make me feel that he was speaking alien language!!! oh ya he is a Ph.d in chemistry quite a wise person....Always showed his loyalty to Lord ( that's mean his talk about Jesus all the time) P/S : i am not dicriminate christian but he just over do it. At a result, we still need to come his lecture for the every last week before exam!!! i swear to god that i really worked hard this sem compare to previous but i can't understand alien language!!!! ( please ...if anyone know where have some courses regarding to this type of language, tell me!!! i really wish wish to know him well) Compare to another chemistry lecturer , Dr. Tang is more experienced that Dr. Wong! Altough the first sight i saw him i was like.....shiao he must be very strict on study and god bless me ( in fact he wasn't that bad, he is strict upon ur timetable but he really really put in afford to not just teaching but using some human language which more easier to digest) Tell u one thing about him...he was head of Department of the chemistry and biology, have a godfather look and u are timid type i advise u to take withdrawing form immediately=P hehehe..... God bless i will see him for my next sem....

One things....it occured last night after dinner with my roomate. While waiting people rushing out from the lift we saw three negro female coming out which three of them wrapped themselve with black!!! Okay them we just entered the lift and a guy entered....then my roomate ,chang, suddenly laughing and couldn't really stop himself....i wondered...so i let him cool down bit and waiting....then suddenly he stopped and spoke out "WIB" which is not funny at all.I asked what the hell is that stand for and yet he was able to speaking out Women in Black while laughing.... i did want to laugh on it, but i didn''t..Because there was a male negro stood in front of me and when chang still holding himself for laughing, that extremely black guy was staring at me and i wonder what will he think bout our conversation about (maybe) his lovers...hahahahaha....then when the door opened he was out with us and i saw lot of negro which are extremely gaint standing very near....the first thing i could think of is run as fast as possible and yet chang still holding his stupid stomach for that stupid joke!!!! then he realised that something is not right and we quickly ran to our house. God bless they din chase us out for that stupi stupi joke. So, advise to u, never never make fun or dicriminate those who really cant take the joke and i can say that we were lucky enough that surviving without breaking bones!!!

Touch!!!

After watched the movie called 'Chicken Rice War' about 2 years ago, i still can remember the poem that said by the guy called Fanson in that movie!!! I can forget the line he mention... okay it goes like this.....


Your beauty is beyond the highest hills i can climb.
To touch you is like feeling a ray of light.
I dream of you everyday and throughout the might.
The thought thatyou are near is heavenly sublime,
but i know reaching you is an impossible dream.
How can an angel possibly see beyond her light?

Blah Blah Blah...testing 1 2 3

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Have a look='(

Executive Comettees of Society of Chemistry and Biology

President :Kuan Yong Jian

Vice President :Vincent

Secretary :Hue Hue

Tresurer :Felicia Ng

Auditor :Tang Sue Hua

Male Representative :Soon Yang Chong

Female Representative :Chan Yen Wen

See??? I am so glad that being elected by the course for being the president of this society.........at first ....but it means i have to take the resposibility for one year to take good care of this society and organise at least one activity such as trip to somewhere else that will need lot of meeting and paperwork to get the college sign the damn permission to keep this society alive...i still wonder now whether i can make it or not=) hehehe....and don't call me Mr.President, okay! It sound so weird!!!

Damned Stupid Indonesian Who Start This Haze

I can't stop myself from damning the stupid Indonesian (referred to those started open burning things)!!!!! and because of them i also can't stop myself from coughing since last night till now. I had enough of this haze since i was born in Johor!!!! They had been repeated over and over this stupid activities and yet the Indonesia' Environment Minister kept promised this problems will reduce, it still happen!!!! And it is happening right here right now where i stay!!!! And now i am feeling extremely not right like chaining for 2 packs of cigarettes!!!! What the heck they doing up there right in Indonesia now????? Burning their smartass there???? Bloody hell,why can't they just realize that they are doing nothing than causing trouble. I can't help myself to curse them by making me cough and sooner or later i got to go for doctor!
Once again curse them burn by the fire they made as a retribution for being such a smartass!

Hehe...here still got more pictures and i have a lot!!But due to the stupid streamys, the connection is far too slow to upload at one time=(

Convocation

Since there is nothing special besides having my convocation last week here are some of the pictures i took with friends....


and more......

Selfishness

Having chemistry practical today and i realized that some of my group members can be that selfished!!! Start from this Wednesday, one of my group member which i don't really have a good impression since the very first moment i met him, we supposed to do centrifugation and the instrument supposingly is one for each group, then the fella just came to my table and simply took away my apparatus without asking and by that time i was looking at him!!!! and what pissed me is that he glared at me for a short while then took away a "lan si" face....Damn him!!!! If he is not my friend's boyfriend, i will nail him behind that lab and shoot him off. Because of him, my group finished the experiment late..and i have to apologize to my friends....If i shoot him off that time then you all no need to wait that long. While today's experiment supposed i can come home earlier, but the lovely couple really share the same bitchy behavour that put them together...what's that....SELFISH!!!!! They just concern about themselve and never bother about queueing. Everybody doing the same experiment and waithing for the same instrument, why must they jump queue and don't even realise that they are extremely rude to those whose are queueing. As a conclusion i can puzzle up why they are couple! Bless them won't be so selfish towards each other.

Freak me out again and again

I curse the streamyx being so uneffectiveness and useless!!!!!Dammit for such a lousy company that cant even provide a service as they promised!!!! They told us that our area is not yet covered with the streamyx service and why at the first place they approched our application? And why the neighbour 2 doors away have their streamyx for 2years!!!!! Being such a major telecommuniction company in Malaysia, why just can they provide such a simple service???And need us to call everyday?? And the advertisement that show the word "PROMISING" is just for fun??Dammit again for employed a bunch of operators that cant even speak in english and showed us such a bad manner!!!! One of the operators that told us that we shouldn't apply the streamyx since my area is not cover by them...ok fine,but that is after my activation of my streamyx account and when i told him that 2doors away have streamyx for 2 years then that stupid malay guy said "Kalau macam itu lucky lah mereka"(very irritating tone).....Can you believe this!!!! What kind of operators they are? How can they react like this? While,other operators tried hard to run away from their responsibility for this. Transferring us from one department to another,such as the activation department said we should call the technician department in the first place to confirm the line and all the cables things are getting done.Then fine we called and the technician department told us that we are still within 14days warranty of the activation department and we should call back to the department!!!! Fuck them!!!! Then where the heck should i called to get their ass from their chair and get the things done???? Is this the PROMISING that said the streamyx will be done within one week time??? Where should i call? What should i do? Why dont they just reject our application at the first place since my area do not have the coverage????????? WHY?????? Assholes!!!They are good for nothing except being parasites!!!!!!