Suicide!!?

Y'day i was on the flight back to KL..Weather not really nice for landing, lot of turbulance and shaking.. suddenly i felt really purposeless and dunno wat should i do (i mean for myself). I only work and work and work...at first OT every weekday, then OT plus standby, then OT plus standby plus work on weekend once a while... till now i work most of the weekend.. Where i ready to work 24/7.. But end up wat i get?? Money? Don think so cz don really earn much..satisfaction? not really, cz m not happy with the system currently practicing..then wat else? NONE!!! I only work for the sack of work but i don really do something to myself..i need to be care and to care about someone, but it seems like impossible for me. I care bout family but i cant go back my home frequently with my stupid working condition. then i dream for someone but she seems like never appear in my life.

And why is that everyone around me expect i MUST have a girlfriend???? Everytime i go out alone for movie or shopping, ppl will ask "U ALONE???" wat the heck...obviously i am alone there!! don ask the question u already got the answer!!! Last weekend after work, went for a show.. the moment buying ticket, saw a secondary school junior. she was very surprise to see me. Not because of seeing me after few years back, but because of I AM ALONE. Fine...forget bout her and go for movie. Enjoyed. But wen stepped out from the cinema, meet my ex-gf roommate.. again, she was surprising i was alone.. Wat the heck..i am alone cz still single..straight forward cz everybody can see it. But i am alone not because of i kena dump by Yenhoong or anything regarding to her...I just cant find a partner simple and easy.. so I still single...Got it? so don ask me if m alone cause yeah u r damn rite i am alone for movie and shopping so how!!!