Childish piece of mind

This week had been read some blogs that i would never done so before. Saw lots of minds that came across with other and felt that i might be the luckiest one on this planet that able to chase what i wanted although it might be hard for me to do so sometimes but i did enjoy of what i was doing. One of the blog i read goes like complaining everyone of not treating her well, being neglected and blah blah blah that she wasn't the luckiest one and everybody turn their back to her. At first felt quite pity for her that she got a pretty face and a boyfriend that love her (erm....which i guess) but she didn't seem like appreciate on what being treated to her. The lastest post she got is like telling people that her friends having a birthday party for her is just like formality of what a human being must do on someone's birthday. What the crap!! I had been go through 21 birthdays in the hell of this world and never have a birhtday cake with me on the damn stupid 24 oct, and since she had it with friends up there and what the hell that she complaining about!!! It seem so childish to me that someone always complaining friends don't care about them and cry for it all the time! Friend doesn't mean that they have to overlap your life always and they got thier things to worry about too!! So don't put your ass to your friend all the time! Grow up girl and be considerate!

Cow BOy in the lab=)

haha...see what i did yesterday!!! hehe....like cow boy or not? Here goes with some of my pictures of i am currently doing now. Everyday more or less the same in lab and besides that most of the time i plan what i will be going to eat for lunch.....hahahahaha......

FuCK!!!

To all my dear blogmate

Whoever read this blog,can u all leave ur address of ur blog pls...Something wrong with my blog all the links gone.....*sob*.....

THanKs a lot

Yongjian

Tired.....

Had been doing my project for about 6 weeks already but feel very tired and a bit miserable. Had been 2 weeks i didn't actually see any progression there besides of washing, making stock and done nothing. Got to be moved today!!!!

I want to change my layout of this blog=) anyone got idea how to make it nicer and easy to maintain?

Bravo!! i broke the sink in lab today!!!

Dammit, i broke the stupid sink in lab today!!! The moment the sink start to sound the calculator start to court too...i wonder how much it cost and finally calculator stopped!!! time to decide....erm....what about 120 in ringgit? oh ya, it's fine with me at this rate..how much i love u god for lighten up my day...

Then ,time to inform my supervisor...he sat in his office and kinda six sensed that i did something really 'nice'. Then came across....time to inform the lab assistant, and he said never mind carry on with my job there 1st which i highlight this word 'FRIST' and he said again that they will meet up and see how. Afterthat he told that that damn stupid sink probably cost few hundreds.....Babi.....then another senior lab assistant came in (Mr. Goodguy). don worry everything will be fine and he will just inform maintance fella to fix it.....words from him make me felt better now.

Guess what i did next!!!!! Writing this stupid blog and spear out to whoever read my blog which they can laugh at me like shit=) babi!!!!!

Baceteria infected!!!

Shit!!! yesterday kena infected by E.coli and shit like hell....

Start project already=)

Now i got the reason come back to school everyday just to do my final year project which involve in culture viruses=) which for me is very cool to handle these things! but before that i gone through a very very long process with i have to autoclave all the apperatus which i will use it for my whole project and i gotta wash them for week. And guess what?! hahaahaha....i already finish all the preparation for the experiments just need to get natural sources then i can start it soon and finish i soon( provided no serious mistake occur)...and geuss what!!! i gonna use my viruses that isolated to infection my friends bacteria to see how strong it is...hahahahahahaha.....in the end only my viruses will survive.....muakahahahahaahhahaha..........

Coffee Passport

BoyBoy

This was the first look of boyboy months ago when he came to our house .............
But.....these are the pictures that currently he is (my housemate suspect he got ticks around his body so cut the fur off!!!!) So here he is..........muakhaahahahahaahahahaha.........lol............

What should i do?

Nightmare finally come!!!!is 3 months holiday which means that i wont be able to see everyone in school!!! although i will be going campus starting from next week but there wont be anyone there except those whose are carry one there finally project like me. I miss YenHoong now and friends.... tommorrow is valentine day but for sure i wont be buying roses or chocalates since i m still single...hehehe...should really pround of it? I just hope that i can fill my 3months time for somethings and for somebody.....

Exam!!!

Finally it comes to me this Saturday! Everyday study just for that freaking exam to come hehehe....so nothing much to post here and just wish me good luck ya=)

This worst things again happen to me='(

I admit that i am way too much of telling this kind of things at this moment. i screwed up myself for waiting a girl for more than one year, is kinda sad for me not because i couldn't get her as a girlfriend but is the matter of the things i had been done in this pass one year she just can't see anyone of them. She really means a lot to me! A questions from her that why i still keep waiting for her so long and is that anything so special about her. I just couldn't give her proper answer that why and why. I just into her so much and i couldn't control, i think she will avoid me for sometime for me to "calm down" starting from now. But i thinks this will be ok with me since i never draw any attention to her. This week, i used hours looking at her from the back of the lecture hall just to console myself that she will realized that i will treat her very nice more than i can do to anyone around me but she just don't let me to show that how much i care about her and the other reason is that we will be skipped 3 months for industrial training and most likely i wont be seeing her for that long and i afraid that i will forget how she look within this period. Yesterday i told myself that i don't want to staring her from the back anymore if i really still want her mine i should talk to her whenever i like and wont ever avoid eye contact with her....yes, no more chicken here! Just go for it you got nothing to lose anymore yongjian! Althogh she told me that i am not the type she want but how could a girl ever tell u she might give u a chance before if she hated you so much. I think there is still a reason. I just want to figure out! So far i had been wating so long and now i really don't even have any interest towards other girls around me. I think i in trouble since the idea that keep waiting so long for this girl maybe is just an excuse for me to avoid myself get in to a realationship. I not kinda saddism she rejected me two days ago and i felt nothing to it and i just hope that i could do anything for her. Maybe treat her nicer than me myself and audience watever or whoever she is in love with and so so...i just don't mind to be a loser......

Bad sign!!!!

yesterday was the worst for this sem!!! first, early in the morning i stepped Boyboy( a dog in my place) urine then i comfirmed sure something bad will happen...then i found out my exam is 20 days away and then i still have lot of things i haven't finish yet...that's not end of the story!!! then i went to my tutorial class and the lecturer passed me my mid term test which I FAILED MY MID TERM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is the first time that i get a shit for my mid term in the pass 3years!!! Dammit!!!

Merry X'mas

Hehe...again another X'mas that i will be alone for it. Since don't know when i started to use to with the feeling that i wont be having fun any x'mas. i try to get myself more competible but yet i still the one who single all the time ( i really hope that i can find someone who i love more than she do) maybe it should be considered as a wish for my X'mas for this year=)

Last two days my group was having a bbq for the first time in the past 3 years!!! how amazing that we all had fun that time and no one is ever left behind...i drank vodka and beer and had some puff which i felt really guilt that i broke my promise... But it was just so happening=) anyway i am not addicted anymore instead for coffee=) hehehe.....hope that we can be able to do it again right after our exam.

high fever='(

saturday night morning felling not so well. thought that maybe the whether change so doesn't really took it seriously, then nite i was like so dead can't even wake up from my bed. the worst is that i had a test this afternoon and i haven't finish studying all!!! can't help with the fever then went for doctor.. He said high fever 39'C and blah blah blah ....take medicine for 4 days if fever not gone then have to do blood test and suspect for denggi.....what the crap!!!!

Starbuck Anniversary Blend
In 1971, we opened the first Starbucks store in Seattle's Pike Place Market, sharing fresh-roasted beans and a passion for a wonderful cup of coffee with our customers.

As we've grown, we've continued to share our passion by carefully blending and roasting intrguing coffees like Satrbucks® Anniversary Blend- a distinctive mix of Asia Pacific and rare aged Indonesian beans, created once a year to celebrate our anniversary.

Smooth with deep spicy flavor notes, this is a big, bold, satisfying blend that seduces our coffee loyalists and salutes our heritage.


For the pictures above, the left hand side is the Chiristmas blends and other the other hand is the Anniversary blend which is kind of bold coffee.

Home

jz heard a song called "Home" from Michael Buble and again i miss home..... it was very hard for me to continue torturing myself with the fact that the girl i like trying to avoid me. I feel ashame to admit it since i couldn't let her get of my mind in this one year time. I tired but my heart died when i try to treat myself like this. A female friends asked : what so special about her? she is not pretty enough, and she is not even got an awesome body shape and what made u so crazy about her!!' she sound very surprise that when she found out i still waiting for that girl....i replied : ya, she is not very pretty than it is good that i after her is not because of her appearance!

But why!! till now i still cant figure out=( i giving up my relationship with a girl that i feel very sorry to her with i really could give her any commitment and the other with she tried to hint me that she got feeling on me but i just turn my back to her just because of the girl that i after( i think should give her a code or nick that easier to understand.......erm.....what JA? i use to call her like this with my friends) Y'day during my lab while i tried to give a break for me to get rid of her for 1 second i went boyroom to wash my face, and i saw her!!!coming out but immediately she saw me then she went in again as in like try to joining her friends...Heart break......

After her for one year already, i didn't actually chat with her personally much. But i found that the most joyful moment is that i chat with her day before her b'day although is just one and the half hour, it really make me feel like the only men in the world or maybe something more than that..Then tried to ask her out for a meal but she refused as she already date with her friends for her birthday. Then i went to the chilis with my housemate as i say treat her as a celebration for her coming b'day, but the reason is that i jz hope that i can get out so that i still have the very very minute chance to meet her somewhere....then end up i spend hundred for a meal and yet i still cant see her. How silly i am='( But i just want to be with her that's is, i don't think i will be a lousy partner till i ignore her feeling and share her everything if she want to. I don't mind her take me for granted, but i know she wont since she don't even want to face me. i am such a useless person which i am so weak of trying to hold someone hand.....

what should i say oh?

recently nothing special, just that i am too busy to write something here=( i got lot of assignment that looks like never end and document that need to be signed. Then this two days my roomate bring his gal back home and stay here, so my area have been restricted for just my table. they watch dvd inside my room , making noise inside that ( actually i m so curious that what they were doing inside....hahahaha) and then ...... lot of things....hehehehe.....which i dont think that i will know since they are behind the door=) lol.....

I found that i went back bp frequently this few weeks which i dont know whether is good or not. I haven't be liked this since i study in secondary school. I can say that i usually wont go home except something urget, but i did it for this few weeks..what's wrong with me??? i wonder...hahajhaha...but is a good sign right since i started to miss my bed and my parent. But when i get home i found that not much friends i have, i stayed home and do nothing beside chatting with my mum. When i went out for my return ticket and salon, i wish to call someone but i just can't recall whoever i can call!!! And i concluded that i had been losing so much friends or in fact they didn't actually thinks that way. I found that only few still keep in touch with me then no one else and those who contact me are those who staying oversea now. How dissappointed i am for being so useless for keeping friend=( What should i do?

WTF

Extremely early in the morning about 3am, i was being scold by a jerk till i woke up by his language! WTF! is he losing his mind of scolding people without any reason! HE LOST HIS PHONE CHARGER!! and how pity he is by losing a charges so he cant chat with his lovely girlfriend around 3am and she had exam paper next morning!!! Is he a nut no!! i can tell that he definitely not a nut, but an ASSHOLE!!!! First i am totally innocent for keeping his charger away and in fact he always throw his charger around my place so usually i will put it back to his place. Do i did anything wrong? and i did even touch his charger for month since i swap handset with my bro so i m using sony ericsson fucker. then by that time he couldn't find his dick, he started to curse by family, me and some sort of like being crash by car blah blah blah.....it was so loud until woke me up and fuck on my face. i told him that i din touch his things for months but he just cant stop shitting with his mouth. Then he went to his sister room and it was in her room!!!! and the moment he get back the charger from that room he knew it was not my false and i m not the person to be blamed....right i did nothing....but he still continue cursing me....wat the fuck men!!! get away from my life and i m so glad that he will be moving soon but before that please return my money asshole....enough for ur shit that u don have money and blah blah blah, i know u jerk giving excuse!!!!

so dead.....

I was so dead today...thought that i will enjoy school after come back from long holiday, but the moment i step to the lecture hall everybody was like rushing toward me for money. Hey!!Give me a break okay!!! here come and say have a bill that cost hundred and then the other one say got that bill cost few hundreds and yet i have to chasing money from other people...then my super stupid jerk roomate haven't pay me back the rental for last month!!!! i am officially broke sooner so if u, jerk, see this please pay me back the money!!!! Dont keep saying you have no money and blah blah blah and yet you still have the money for nonsense. And today is the due date for rental to my landlord and no one pass the their rental to me!!!! Why must i remind you all every months!!!!! are u all nut!!!!!????? i am extremely tired chasing money here and there already....I don't like to begging money everyday. IT IS NOT MY JOB TO DO THAT!!!! you all should know that you need to pass me the rental latest by 7th every month, why must i nagging every months? cant you just save the rental as you know that you must pay instead of keep on staying here, why you all jerks spend every penny u have just for so called 'entertaintment'!!!! To me, all the things u did for denying to pay the rental on time are every selfish and please stop it if you still like the place you are staying now.......I AM VERY TIRED FOR CHASING MONEY EVERYDAY!!!!! Dammit!