Depressing

haih...dunno why recently feel very empty. Suddenly question myself why i always spend most of my time alone. Recently out quite often but still my heart feel nothing. I knew a lot of people but none of them really close to me only a few... a few...most of the time i have to call up "fren" and "beg" them out. If i din call then my phone will silent for whole day. I very scare of being alone.. that's why i always call ppl.. but the more i call the more they things the annoying i am. I don really mean to trouble you guys.. but i really dunno wat to do wen being alone...no one hear wat i saying, no one see me....my secondary sch fren.... those so called good fren or best fren never call me to chitchat.. seldom they will find me for dinner or movie...or even hang out for mamak. I hate to beg ppl out but i even hate being alone...but what else can i do??? i try to be those type of fren u all wan, but it jz look like i cant get into the same circle with u all...I tried... tried so hard to get myself into the loop but why u all jz push me aside...college frens also busy with their job and seldom contact each other. What about family?? I dunno jz feel like m not one of them too..with my brother i don have much thing to chat with and my second elder sister will never call me unless she got some unavoidable issue...Eldest sister is the one who can communicate with me but most of the time i call her she is not there for.. My father is one of the typical chinese father tall less to son all the time. The most i can chat is my mom but seldom talk much recently eventhough i call her almost everyday.. I hate being lonely...why is that so hard to find a partner that i care bout her and she care bout me??!!! i tried to fall in love with some girl but ended up i was the one who look stupid all the time... I don expect anything and i don request anything more that a caring partner. . am i really that bad? I am tired....way too tired...if i could i would escape from here...if go to a new place i will also be alone but at least all the people i know are all uncontactable...stay here is even hurt when u wan to contact them and they just walk away from u......... i m tired of my life!!!!!

another day being sale

Ok before talk bout my sale part i will touch bit of this morning...hand over some stuff to other colleague... Giving training to 2 girls regarding to one of the product i handled before.. here we go...before start trix was telling me sure got ppl bring coffee in..i said impossible...but eventually she was pretty rite =( Yen Sim bring one coffee in.. fine... start training....ok... first 10 slides...very smooth and steady... but afterward, yen sim start to fall asleep..Angela cant wait to start a topic....hey no way....come back u two...kekekke....then they start lot of questionsssss....tons of questions.... really 2 problematic girl....hahahah.....don let them see this...buahahahah....then my presentation slide got 169 pages but end up i manage to finish up 50 slides before out for lunch..

After lunch...meeting!!!! after first meeting....talk talk talk talk talk.....then finished...hahahah... so happy... "slammed down my laptop" ....then regional manager said...YJ u cant go, got one more...Oh no...let met go!!!! hahaha....then opened my second choc bar makan there...kekekeke....then meeting again....all figure and strategy... totally lost....hahahhaha....then suddenly finish...buakakakakakka......now here i am.....goyang kaki~ing....

~the end~ ??????

Not yet...going farewell party....hahahhahah

~Happying~

I m NOT ur Boyfriend!!!!

Hey first thing U...Yup i mean U...have to clear that i am not your boyfriend... so i don have the responsibility to take care of U!!!! U got your own boyfriend so let him do his part and what the hell u got interview in somewhere have to do with me???!!! Ask your bf to fetch u!!! I don wan to waste my time on you, so go away...Yup i did like you before but hey...is before...meaning long ago...so don trouble me with all these stupid things...Don't contact me only when u wan someone to fetch u here and there... I M NOT FREE FOR U... thx...go away...bye bye and hope don see you again cause i m not "WAter Fish"....

~Not Syok~......

hOw to be a SaLe rEp

yup the first thing being a slae rep of course is to meet customer. So this is my first day of sale...meet customer=) I never expect so easily i can call off a day...kekeke...Ok...here we go....

Moving from office to customer place....first customer meeting...second customer training...then end up do nothing=)

Afternoon...go meeting third customer...meeting... then the next...WHAT!!! Training.....sighs...fine grap "chin chai" chatting...then the outcome wait for the person in charge come back...result...waiting....

arrrhhh.... "not sYok" go back to the previous hospital....finally meet the Sister in charge... End up chatting...

So u expect this is the ending?????

Haha...not yet cz is time to yum cha~ing =P

hahahaa...and now here i am onlining...

~The End~

Two sides...

Problem always arise when human have different kinda perception.. Perception helps and sometimes it harm. When the insight of a person is sharp then perception become effective in solving problem; what if perception is wrong.. more problems will come then.. Perception help a person to grow, right perception show the maturity whereas wrong perception gives room to be matured. Human always claim that we are so great and so great on this and that. But sometime u don even notice perception can comes in two way. You can think of something on someone, what bout other towards you? That’s my point!! Sometime really hard to predict what is other’s perception towards you and so we will tend to be slow down just to make clear on something that we aren’t really sure. What is the purpose? Am I wasting my time on something that is impossible for me? Never try never know? So what should I do right now…people always ask…some will say why care; some scare… But that’s one side perception. For me I would like to get an answer rather than guess at this stage, so I will. But another problem arise…when should I ask… then follow by where should I ask….then who should I ask….and even then how should I ask….never ending question, create more and more problem. So I choose to follow my nature instinct, do before ask…I may get hurt but am ok…because the wrong move will make me grow, and the growth will make me stronger. I hate being lonely but indeed it makes me think more and more…life never easier and life never stop…carry one with your life and find someone that treasure you.