Friday, November 10, 2006

Sorry

Recently i found out tat i was removed from my ex friendster list....kinda can understand how she feel towards me....i admit i am a shit and i let her down broke her heart. I hardly could understand how much she suffered the moment we are together. I kinda dropped her a word that i don't really want to in a relationship and then give up such a good girl that i still believe that she is!!! I am such a damn stupid moron that let her ever passed me by and without hold her back..I don't understand why i can did this to such a good girl!!!! i broke her heart and the moment she needed me and i really such a scum that turn my head away that time!!!! What's wrong with me????? i knew she loved me most that time and she can even give up her dream and everything just for me but i don even know how appreciate such a good girl....what the heck was i doing.....after broke up we still contact once awhile but getting lesser and lesser...till i forget her....and now i fight with my present girl friend and one friend make a comparison....now i can barely understand how she felt last time and she did really love me and i really such a dumb tat less her down!!!! then compare again my ex really treat me like god....she willing to did everything for me without even i asked.....but the present i got to do everything to her even she din ask.....i kinda tired of this.....i was wrong and i am extremely wrong now oso.....a relationship comes in two ways but seen like i din appreciate last time and i don have to chance to appreciate now. Is very important that u love someone and oso is very important that someone fall in the way u do. I missed the chance and i got to pay back...I wish my ex will find a better one...far much more better than me. I let her down and i wish i can make sth to pay back, but i really don know how to face her again....sorry sing ni...i let such a nice girl passed by my life like that and i really sorry hurt u so much...