Thursday, April 28, 2005

Complicity of Human Nature

I saw these lines when I reached home from work and I found it is quite solid from what the writer said. The writer is my housemate who is a legal student. Yi Jing is her name and she had no idea while I was typing this. Quite agree with her view that we are all either performer or audience. So here are the lines of human’s life….

Complicity of Human Nature

I would say that one of the wow-est creations of god is our brain, besides human as a whole. There are billion of tiny little neurons in the brain that help us to think. The information receive through other external organs was being sent through some awesome liquid in the brain called M-something. It must be noted that the data was being communicated through this liquid, the neurons itself never touch each other to get the information. If they happened to be bumped together, you are going to be insane. Thus, basically brain is the faculty of thinking. That is to say it is the master of the human body and behavior.

As interesting as the neurons, human try to master over the institute of thoughts. Though brain is the master of all, it often comes to a decision with the assistant of heart. If we say that brain is a very subjective faculty, then I would say that heart is a very emotional thing. However, let’s look at their actual God-given function, i.e:-

Brain - to think, but not to function nor pro-long the other faculties.
Heart - not to think, but to support other body part as a whole.

That is to say, once the heart stop pumping, the brain stops to think. Does this statement overturn the rule that brain is the master of the mind? It ought to be so, I supposed. That’s why there come a term called “soft-hearted”. Once the heart ‘felt’ it, if signals the brain to think the other way round. Or perhaps, if brain is the YDPA, heart would be the PM.

Having said so, it is obvious that human nature as a whole is as complicated as the neurons, and arteries. Maybe if was caused by these funny things, we should be in part with them. There were times where we do things that are contrary to other thoughts. Implying that the heart and the brain do not co-operate.

One might be doing something (eg. bought a ticket to watch opera), but he never ever meant to do so (eg. he don’t actually wants to watch opera). However, he says that he loves the thing as a whole (eg. he likes the opera setting and maybe the songs or sound system). And at the end of the day he tried to do it but yet he isn’t so into it (eg. tried to sit in the theatre throughout the show but he still don’t like opera).

Pointing at the above example given, isn’t it confusing? Why would somebody do that to make their own life miserable? If from the very beginning, he bought the ticket himself without any duress or threat by others, is he trying to watch opera or he wanted to watch opera? The only explanation should be that he wanted to watch opera, but that particular performance was not what he is expecting. He might keep watching opera, but he may be still waiting for a good performance.

The performers are the great pretenders. Spiced up others day while have to bury their own sorrows. However, they are not a bunch of loser, having able to look at life as a play, they becomes the winner. A chapter begins, its mostly introductory. Followed by chapters which is filled with laughter and tears. Chapter ends, this is when you may judge whether it is a good play or not. I would be a performer in my life. I played the role as a girl, daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend, wife etc.. I can play it all well. Because I am a good pretender, who can be absorbed to every role given to me. So whatever the ending is, I would deserve the cheers from my audiences. Then I begin another play.

The saddest person is the audience, especially those who tried to watch the opera but was reluctant to feel the story. Well, perhaps they did not choose the suitable play. Perhaps… Or the people who loves opera, but was unable to afford the ticket? So they work hard try to save enough for the ticket, yet the think they don’t like the play, or the actually don’t like opera at all? As complicated as it is, there is no explanation, but only more questions.

if given a chance, will you wanted to be the audience who was not sure of his taste of play or the performer who are the pretender but happy and know his part well? I would choose the latter, because my play is a play itself. And God will be the director.

Complicated as a script that is written by Him, I would only read it as it is. I will only feel the words when I am performing. That is the duty given. That is the reason I am here. That is the reason I am the survivor, and so I am the winner and best performer.

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Is that money so important?

i wander long time ago since i was in form 4....Is that really money is everything for human? We are kinda sick for this thing since thousands years ago.Why people concern about those figures so badly?There is still a lot of things beyond that evil!!!

Last week my mom and sister told me that my brother broke with his girl. i kinda of wander why these two people travel so far already, can't they just pass through this....Is the matter of MONEY again='( how sad is it...Because they girl is came from a well background then she will feel more secure if my brother married her with bunch of money???Is that true?? Is that called love?? I believe in my brother that he won't let his women to suffer or even hurt a bit though he can't let the girl spend crazy as hell...years of relationship can't even fight with those presures from girl's house???

I cursed them for being so money minded and wish they suffer from what they desperately search for!!!Damn it!!

Hopefully my brother will be fine at this moment and this can be turned to a positive motivator for him.

Saturday, April 16, 2005

Working

What is the life after exam?i found myself a part time jod!! It is hard to believe that i will work for my holiday,cause most of the time during my holiday i jz stay home and did nothing.I am working as a crew of Biore Roadshow now and found it quite fun there.I had ran from college to college like KDU, APIIT,KBU,Taylor's.....next week i will be going to Monash and Sunway College and the CEO of the Biore will be there also for that roadshow. I made lot of friends there and earning lot=) One thing that i found it quite funny is that my event manager jz have two week exprience then the boss ask her to handle all the road show without leading her.I found very pity for my manager that scold by that useless boss for nothing.The boss just know how to shit and didn't know how excatly to run a real roadshow. I wonder why such a stupid ass hole can be so lucky to have a company while people who really work hard can't find themselve to success. He is luckily that he have those partner that earn money for him every months and he should thanks what he have now plus stop shit on someone when he have no idea at all about what is happening. I heard from my assistant manager that the stupid ass hole always hold the pay for those crews for months. Hopefully i can get my pay soon and i can forget about the ass hole soon.Just another 5 more days, i wil be free=)

Monday, April 11, 2005

Farewell

I finished my last exam for my diploma!!!But it also mean that some of my friends will left='( Wei Lun and JoAnNe....bye...this could be the last second we gather around.. anyway you all still are my friends!!!!

The moment i stepped out from the exam hall i felt like i am beyond the sky and feel damn good!But jz after a while i was thinking about Wei Lun and Jo. My advance year will be a dump without them. Then without thinking too much we as in a gang, me ,WeiLun, Joanne, MingKit, Trixie and Siang Yee went for fun!We went to S.Yee's boy boy house, and the houses there is extemely huge!i cant stop wonder how can ppl earn such a lot money like tat...is tat one car not enough for them or 5cars look nice a bit? When can i earn tat amount of money? but i dun think is a priority for me at this state, men shouldn't jz physically feeded!Without filling the spirit will lead to a life like animal or worst a zombie.

After wondering some much, we went to 1 utama for dinner...The restraurant is a Italian style but i cant tell the name already. We place ourselves into a very private bulgany. Jz a table for 7 of us and no one could interupt us by that time. Having a great food and topic, we killed bout one and the half hour there..after that pool came next between me and wei lun....I won the game!! Sori about that Wei Lun=P then we went ss2 for dessert!!! i ended our gathering there but it is before we stick there for about 3 hours...Is a taboo to break that 3 hours.I don't know whether they realize or not, our date or gathering wont go exceed 3 and i think that is already an acheivement for us.


Lastly all the best for Wei Lun and Joanne.Hope that they are doing well all the time and they will not be forgotten...Bye FrenZ.....and Buddies!!

Friday, April 08, 2005

What is the purpose of life?????

What is the purpose of life???

Two semester ago i was starting to be deal with the word alone. From that moment i start to wonder what should i do after by then to kill my time and all the crap. Staying outside from home is not a easy task. Without a companion it makes you feel more terrible. Then i start wondering why i am here and what should i do or should someone give me some hints. By that time i try to search for answer for my life, i try to think a lot, see a lot , ask a lot.......Why do i have to do some??? Just for a simple answer that what is the purpose of life!!

It is a shame to tell that i still can't find my answer up to this moment while i am 21='( At the very first moment i was wonder that maybe i was feed no enough love and care. When friends become your enemy, start to betray you and leaving you- You are standing alone!!! So i stop the one i was before and start a brand new me...Of cause lot of friends in my old time dislike this changes...

What do i care now is why i am here....can someone give me a hint???